The Queen of Misfits

Chap 13

This chap talks about feelings and how it is ok not to be ok and no matter what there is a light at the end of the tunnel I advise tissues to be near. I was crying while writing this due to some news I was told why I was home , so many emotions flowing, mostly sad.

Natalia POV

Those who disprove will be banished from the queendom of angels and looked down upon by all. But not only that but in that you are disrespecting your queen and the laws of our kind. They all look at me with surprise seeing as I am going to combine supernatural kingdoms but not only that I am going to take my place as Queen. I look at them all in the living room and release today has been one hell of a day and one of pain for all and all i want in this moment is a moment of peace. I look around and they are all looking at me for further instruction and it may dismiss you all to go home and rest sorry for the summonce. They reply with it is ok my queen we understand and will be here if you need us. They all leave now. I'm stuck with Della and Rowan when all I want to do at the moment is curel up in a ball and cry and let my emotions out but I can not do that. I need to stay strong for everyone. I look to hope in my mind in her angel form and ask if she can get us somewhere safe. She responds with we are safe Natalia they will not hurt us it is ok. I look back to hope and say then why do i not feel safe i feel scared and uncomfortable and ready to break down in tears at any given moment. I can't do this hope. I can't start to cry when hope says it is ok not to be ok, go with mate and sister and recover. It is ok to need to cry, you do not always need to be ok. I need to be there for everyone. My problems can wait. I need to take care of them first. Natalia, my person I an Angel celestial being, says it is ok not to be ok, you need to take care of yourself too. But uh uh uh no buts.I know it is hard being betrayed and the one that betrayed you, your longest friend and finding your parents are not your true parents. It will be ok, it will just take time to heal the wound that was made. Ok, Hope I will try. That is my girl now go and recover my dear. I look back to the present in the world and realize how I feel . Not only am I sad and mad and tired , I want a hug. A hug not from the people around me but from my mom and dad, Not from the ones that were fakes but my real ones. I want not to be betrayed. I step out of Rowan's arms and walk outside. I take out my phone and call my third in command that is now my second in command due to the betrayal of Sebastian. May he rot in hell. I call Cheshire one of the biggest assassins in the underworld.

The call

C: hello

N: chess come to Hawaii you are being promoted to 2nd in command sebastian was the mole.

C: That bitch are you ok?

N:No I'm not. I need you to play chess . I need you to help restore order and kill all those who have wronged me. I want blood.

C: Natalia I do not know where this came from but I will be there in 17 hours. I just need a place to crash.

N: I was going to sell my old house but I can just give it to you.

C: awesome, now tell me what else is going on.

N:My parents were not even my parents. I betrayed me and my fiance had a rough patch and my world feels like it is crumbling down. I want to be able to finally breathe. I feel suffocated.

C: you no what fuck it How far away is the nearest volcano?

N: are going to do what i think you are.

C: No, I'm not Natalia. The reason I'm good at this job is because I have fire magic and I can teleport with volcanos.

N:WTF how come I did not know?

C: Well I don't tell anyone.

N: Well then I should tell you I'm an angel.

C: bet

N: Found one yet
C: yep be their in ten min

N: ok see you then

End call

I head back in and see Rowan looking at me weird, then I realize I have tears streaming down my face. I look at him and say my friend is on her way. She will be here in ten. He looks surprised and asks why. I look him straight in the eyes. I need her. Her name is cheshire. You mean cheshire as in thee cheshire yes thee cheshire. He looks at me and I realize his family and della are all still here. I Look to them and say I'm sorry I caused this mess because it is all my fault. Rowan's mom walks over sweetie. This is not your fault, don't ever think it is. I understand it is hard right now with the betrayal and the uprooting of finding out your parents are not your parents but i will be your mom you can call me mom i will be your mom and no matter what my child i love you. Now we are going to have some tea and you can tell everything to your new mom. I look to Rowan looking for a sense of safety. He walks over to me and grabs my hand and as he does the doorbell rings and in walks Cheshire with her great dane.Her great dane Loki walks in. I let go of Rowan's hand and ran to the door and gave Cheshire a hug. I'm balling my eyes out while I'm giving her a hug. Loki looks at me with the dane eyes and I bend down and give him a hug. As I stand back up I feel a hand go around my waist. It is Rowan and I look and see the look of question in his eyes.