Bad Boys Need Love Too( A Dean Ambrose Fan Fiction)

Chapter 38 No Matter What I Say,Dont Leave Me

I don't know how long I've been sitting here,but I know I'm starting to feel light headed from all the blood loss. I heard Jon walk out of the room,oh great..I just kept my head in my knees trying to stay conscious

"Sarah what the hell happened!" He asked me

"Stay away from me" I said

"What? Sarah-"

"Don't touch me Jon!" I demanded

"Why? What did I do?" He asked. I put my hands on my head trying to stay conscious,I was hyperventilating a bit. Slapping my self doing anything to stay awake. I felt my body go weak as my eyes felt heavy and closed,unable to open.

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I woke to a beep sound go on every two seconds and what felt like a needle go in my arm

"Please don't touch me" I said before I opened my eyes and noticed I was in the hospital..I hate this place

"Sorry sweetheart but,I have to do that in order to help you" a nice young lady said with gloves on and taking out the needls,she must be the doctor

"You OK? Why do you look confused honey?" She asked

"What happened exactly?" I asked in a ragged,tired voice

"Well,a nice young man said you got cut in the arm I was hoping you remember,that was only part of the information and it might not even be the real story" she said

"No,sorry" I barely got out of my voice
"Well,you lost a lot of blood and we want you to spend the night here just in case you don't have a reaction to any of the medicine we gave you" she smiled while walking out. I tried to sit up but my arms we're weak. Whats worse then spending the night in the hospital? Not being able to move in the hospital for 18 hours

I looked at my arm,get this needle out of my body,I felt nauseous by the feeling of a needle in my body,I get sick easily, I covered my arm with the blanket and rested my head back

As soon as I was about to fall asleep the door opened to Jon,he looked worried and upset. He stuttered with his walking. He made his way over to the side of my bed

I didn't know weather to be scared or feel sorry. He held his hand out like he was waiting for me to do something. I was hesitant for a minute,then I slowly rested my hand in his. He smiled and rubbed my leg

"Hey" he said

"How did I get here?" I asked him

He looked at my other arm and so did I,stitches.. yay everything started flooding back through my head

"Can you tell me how we are here?" He asked

"I'm sorry Jon,I had to,it was the only way out" I said starting to cry. He squeezed my hand a bit and wiped away my tears but they just came back

"It's just,to much stuff was going on like Colby taking me nothing but lies,Renee always in my life and..and then it was you,I was alone for two hours Jon, you haven't said a words to me..is it my fault that you hurt me? I cut myself big deal, I'm alive, which tells me I can do it again,and again and again Jon,nobody came to help,I was alone it the bathroom for about thirty minutes crying my eyes out. You know,what if I never met you? I wouldn't be going through this pain..heck,I wouldn't even be here and I think I'm preferring that" I said

It was silent,I pulled my hand away from Jon and crossed my arms. He walked out without looking back. Now I felt more alone,what did I do? Whats making me do this to people? All he wanted to do was make sure if I'm OK

I just wanted to crawl in a hole and stay there forever

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That Long miserable day went by and all I can say is I'm a guilt sack walking around. I sat in the waiting room thinking where I should go and what I should do. Jon's probably at work,not even thinking about me. Threw my clothes in the fireplace or whatever

I decided to just walk around the little city and find something,I deserve this,I was so cruel to everyone.

I looked around and found myself in the parking lot. I sat down on a bench and thought..thought about all the fun times I had,I never smiled so much in my life..what happened? I ripped up the papers the doctor gave me and threw them in the trash

I felt something around me. I was scared but was to weak to move. Whatever it was got off of me and was now in front of me,I didnt look up,I'm so depressed. The person bent down and I lit up brighter than the sun when I saw Jon

I hugged him and brought him closer to me than ever

"I'm sorry,I'm really sorry,I made a mistake,you don't have to forgive me, just tell me you love me...even if it's fake" I said crying on his shoulder

"I love you baby,it's not fake" he said rubbing my back

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Back in the hotel Jon let me rest and so did he. He told me that he has to leave in a hour.

Jon pulled me close to him and I didn't care,I pulled myself closer to him, I didn't want to let go of him,not again.

"Please don't hurt your self again Sarah OK?" He asked me,I looked up at him

"OK" I responded

"Jon,No matter what I say please don't leave me" I said

"I never planned to baby" he said rubbing my lower back.

Thirty minutes went by and Jon had to leave. He held my head and kissed me and I kissed back. I pulled back

"Be back as soon as possible" he said walking out the door
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