Bad Boys Need Love Too( A Dean Ambrose Fan Fiction)

Chapter 32 It's Something I Can't Fix

I woke up to hearing voices. I looked to my side and saw joe's back facing me and colby on the other side of jon's bed,they must be talking. Colby noticed me as i sat up and told joe

"Morning babygirl" joe said turning around to face me

"Hey" i grogily said standing up and stretching

"Stalking people while they sleep?" I asked them as i stood next to joe and looking at a sleeping jon

"No,just paying him a visit..but he happened to be sleeping" colby said,i nodded. I remeber what he told me last night..which reminded me i need to talk to him

"When do you think he'll wake up?" I asked them

"I don't know,when did he go to sleep last night?" Joe asked me

"I don't know, i went to sleep before him..im sure of" i said

"Well,it's a mystery" joe said, i chuckled. I walked over to colby, signaled him to follow me and walked outside the door closing it behind me

"Yes?" He asked

"About last night and what you said,i-"

"Lets just leave that aside" he said

"No...um I apologize for doing this but last night I was just trying to make Jon upset, I didn't mean to make you think that I uh I like you" i said

"I realized" he frowned "but I'm just gonna have to except it right?"

"Mhm" i said. He walked away with his head down..why do i feel so bad,there is nothing i can do to cheer him up..well....i can...

I grabbed colbys hand,pulled him close to me and kissed him, it was the only thing i could do to cheer him up. Don't call me a jerk for doing this...i wanted to make a friend happy. I pulled back

"Why did you do that?" He asked me

"You looked sad..will i regret this..yes but using you was wrong and-"

"Sarah, I'm fine, you didn't have to do that..good luck telling Jon" he said walking away. I could tell he was pissed..although he was right..how am i gonna tell jon?

I stepped back and walked in jon's room with colby following. Im not disappointed or sad..well i am sad but for another reason. I noticed jon wake up,which made me more upset..there is a man i love so much broken in the hospital,where on the other side there is a close friend who has feelings for me...one person won't be happy,and i have a feeling that person is colbs

"What took so long?" Joe asked joking around with jon

"They kept asking if i felt pain last night,and didn't stop pricking needles at me" jon said in his raspy voice which made me feel bad..did i just kiss colby again? In front of his hospital room? Oh great,im a terrible person...should i tell him..but if i don't,that would make me a even terrible person.

"Hey sarah,you ok? Just standing there" jon said, i shook my thoughts away i walked over to the bed next to joe

"Oh yeah,happy birthday joe" jon said..it's his birthday?

"Thanks bro" he said, remind myself to wish joe a happy birthday

"So when do you get out of this place?" Colby asked him

"Uh,last night they said i was good to go today" jon said, i smiled and shook my head in a 'no' motion causing all eyes on me

"Did they sarah?" Colby asked me

"What time last night jon?" I asked him

"When you were sleeping" he responded

"Are you sure,cause you also told me last night,that you were just gonna leave, permission or not" i chuckled

"Really jon" joe said

"What,im serious,they said their surprised at the pace i healed at and said i was free today" jon said, I studied his face and could tell he was lying, I chuckled while shaking my head

"Ok,but if we get in trouble for this..it's on you" i said causing joe and colby to nod

"You won't" jon said sitting up "now get out so i can change" he added,we all glared at him

"Please" he said, then we left

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When jon finished getting dressed in the clothes joe and colby brought him,we left to get some breakfast to celebrate the start of the day for joe's birthday.
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We walked in and sat on the booth,ordered our food and started talking

"How about tonight,we finish the day at the bar" jon said

"Sounds good to me..you?" Colby asked joe

"Yeah,as long as you two can stand each other" joe said pointing to me and jon

"Why say that?" I asked joe

"Ok so you guys are good now right?" Joe asked us

"Yup" jon said

"No more lies" joe said

"Nope,right sarah" jon said to me

"Right" i said, i would be lying if i looked like i saw a ghost

"You ok?" Joe asked me

"I need some fresh air" i said, no lies..are you serious..didn't i just lie about lying...I'm a horrible person. I walked out the restaurant and sat on the ground putting my head in my knees

"Sarah?" Someone said, i looked up and saw jon and put my head back in my knees..im gonna have to tell him

"You ok?" He asked sitting down next to me, grunting a bit at the pain, i looked up at him and broke down,cyring

"Whats wrong?" He asked putting his arm around me..not the injured one

"Jon im sorry,you don't have to forgive me, aperiently i haven't learned my lesson" i cried

"Is this about my car accident?" He asked

"No, i kissed colby" i said

"I know" he said

"No... I did it again..earlier..i felt bad for using him but -" i paused looking at his face..how is he nit mad? "Don't you feel mad? Jon I did something that was stupid, I just wanted to make you feel bad and I apologized, said I wasn't gonna lie again and-...Damn I a horrible person" i said wiping my tears away

"Your not a horrible person, it's gonna take a lot for me to believe that. I do forgive you for kissing Colby,nothing compares to what i did. Listen i love you and that won't change,even when we are at each others throat's" he said

"I have one question" i said

"Hit me" he said

"When-did you really say bad things about me?" I asked him with tear stains

"No,why would you think that?" He asked me

"But renee said-"

"Don't listen to her. She's nothing but bad news" he said cupping my face

"Wait where is she?" I asked him

"Oh yeah,you broke her nose,she was in the hospital" he said causing me to smile

"Eh, i guess that's better than nothing" i said causing Jon to chuckle,he stood up and pulled me up

"Don't forget that i love you,not her" he said

"Love you to" i said,we walked in and finished our meal, the only reason this all started is because i said i didn't trust him..all of my life i accepted people..good one's..bad one's, friends,enemy's, savers,killers...i never really learned until my mom went all evil on me. Until then i had and still have trust issues,so,it's kinda hard for me to accept someone into my life...it's something i cant fix

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Hey guys,today is may 25 and im positive that its not by the time i publish this book..chapter thingy, but today is romans birthday..I probably sound stupid XD oh well

I hope you like this chapter,vote,comment,and enjoy,bye