Corruption ( An original story )

13: The meet

( A/N: That's lullaby will be mentioned in this chapter, I know that Isabella is like a villain in the anime. But I like the song, so don't judge me. But you can listen to the male cover of this song if you like.)

TW: Mentions of Verbally and physical abuse.

I got ready and Roy was sleeping on the couch. I left a note for my parents if they come home earlier than me. I walked all the way to the lake, I didn't want to get track down by the gods or the godlings. I still have hated towards the gods and the godlings, thanks to Ryker. But I don't know if I should trust him, I started to questioning my decision and I was already at the lake. I saw an figure at the dock and I walked slowly there. I could just, no, I can't, I made this choice to talk to your ex-friend. 

I feel like an fucking idiot, right now. I don't know what Caspian will think of me now, but he was dead because of me. It should be me, argh, my survivor guilt is taking over again. He pushed me into the lake for a reason and he knew I was going to capture that night. That's why he tried to convince me to stay home with mom and dad, but I am stubborn child anyways.

I stopped in front of Ryker, his back was at me. He was staring at the lake, I had my gun just in case if there was godlings hiding around here. I can feel Ryker smirked as he turned around, " Hello firelight, I am glad you made it on the dot, " he remarked and I rolled my eyes, he never changed. He can be cold to most people, but for some he isn't. I gave him a frown, he smiled and I don't know why he needs me for. 

" If you are here to joke around, I could just leave. If you got an godlings with you, I will seriously motherfucking kill you, " I warned him with my death glare, he sighed and then he become serious. " You changed, I didn't expect you changed. But I am here to properly apologize to you after what happened 3 years ago. Look, I didn't mean let that-"

I put my hand up to stop him, " You told me what ever you do is on purpose, but I don't know who is lying right now. The fact all the gods are looking for me so they can kill or hurt me because my grandmother was an kind goddess, the only god who wasn't corrupted. Your kind hates me, " I explained to him, he stared at me with apologetic eyes and I am not going to fall for that, never again. 

After what happened with Caspian, I never wanted to trust gods or godlings. I don't want to risk it, and I don't know if I could trust him. I don't trust anyone that easily these days, mostly the gods and the godlings to be honest. I've been living in fear and been on the run, while my family has been but never me. I was always struck at home, always trying to figure out to do with my fucking life and I always try to cure my boredom with music or drawing or reading those were my best choices. When after the incident, I couldn't go to the lake right away and my parents were always watching me like eagles and I hated it. 

But the first few months after Caspian's death, I cried myself to sleep for the first few months. Sometimes, I will sing the song that my older brother sang to me when I had nightmare or I couldn't sleep at all. It was this beautiful song, but I forgot the name of it. I sighed, Ryker looked at me.

" I know it's my fault, look, I didn't mean to. I am very sorry for what I've done, I just want to fix things with you okay? You don't have to trust me, I know it will take a very long time for me to gain your trust. But I just wanted to apologized to you, that's what I did. I really want to fix our relationship, take your time, so can we be friends again?" He handed out a hand and I stared at it. I lifted up my hand, but paused. I don't know if I want to trust him, but he said take my time. I turned my head a bit and I stared at the water. He needs an answer, but I don't know if I am doing the right thing. Fuck it!

" Fuck it, " I mumbled and I took his hand. He smiled at me and I looked at him, I slightly blushed. " Friends, " I said quickly, I pulled my hand back and he sighed. I am not trusting him so easily, I hope I didn't make the same mistake again.

" So what do you want to do?"

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I decided to go to the meadow, the meadow I went after the incident and before the incident. Sometimes I came here for fun or somewhere to calm down from a fight I had with my parents. When I was a kid, my parents will verbally or physical abuse me for doing something that's " child of light should be pure" thing. I always came here, I liked it here. They didn't know this meadow existed, " I remember this place, you took me here when you wanted to talk to me about the verbally or physical abuse you had to handle when your older brother was busy. "

He remembers those moments, " Do they still..."

" Yea, but not like before. But sometimes, they do when they are mad at something. They will take their anger at me, sometimes only. But I can't do anything except defense myself, when I do, I get slapped in the face. I don't show emotion, they just want reaction from me and I don't show it because I am not idiot. One time, after the incident, things got heated and my mom grabbed an scorning hot knife and she stabbed into my wing. Before she realized what she did, my dad grabbed the knife from her and threw it away from her. That was one of those times that my dad was on my side. He treated my wound and I still have that burned wound on my wing, " I explained him, as I plucked an apple from one of the apple trees in the meadow. 

I gave it to Ryker and he took it. " You remember I love these kind of apples, golden delicious. " I nodded, " I could never forget because you knew my favorite flower since we were kids."