PSYCHO

CALL ME BY MY NAME

"Then can I call you by your name?"

Haein asks this question out of the blue making Jisoo a bit confused. For a minute or so she made no reply. But she finds it hard to reject because she is curious how her name sounds like from his mouth. The line she drew wasn't there anymore, she likes when he more frequently shows his warm side, those brown pupils...

"Jisoo?"

Jisoo blushes so hard while hearing it, it sounds like a melody to her, it's the most beautiful pronunciation of her name she has ever heard.

"Mr. Jung, it sounds amazing."

"Jisoo, you should call me by Haein instead."

Jisoo can feel her cheeks burning and her earlobes must be blood-red right now. She finds it difficult to say it out loud because then they will sound like friends, and she is afraid of getting too close to her patient. But her inner self is pushing her to do so because part of her wants to be closer to him.

"Hae...Haein..." Jisoo stutters a bit and says in a volume that is barely audible but Haein manages to hear it. He smiles and looks at her, the feeling he has felt several times before is coming back to him again, he feels happy and calm just by hearing his name from her mouth.

Jisoo smiles too looking at his smile, the curve of his smile is just perfect, his puppy eyes are also glowing because of the dim lights in the cell.

Awww he looks so cute and adorable.

For some time they just stay like this. Time freezes around them, he looks like a normal person, more than normal, and she forgets how scary he is and she forgets all the images of him when they first met. At this specific moment both of them just look at each other with sincerity and the temperature in the cell seems to get warmer.

Haein reaches out to hold Jisoo's hand and she lets him, minutes pass and both of them just don't want to stop. His warm palm rests on Jisoo's cold fingertips (girls I think we could all relate to this, like guys always have warmer hands than us lol, anyways let's continue). Their shoulders are leaning together and they just stares into each other's eyes for eternity.

"Jisoo...I don't know what to say about this feeling I have about you, I just don't know how to form them into sentences. Whenever you are around me I feel a stinging feeling in my chest, my heart seems to be trying to get out of chest and it's pounding hard. I feel happy whenever you speak, and I don't want you to leave, I don't want our time to end everyday. Every night I look at the moon and I'll remember the way you smiles and looks at me. I don't know, I just love to have you around."

Jisoo is too stunned to speak. Her heart, too, is pounding so fast and if she doesn't have such a healthy lifestyle she might be having a heart attack right now. Jisoo really wants to tell him that she likes him, a lot, but she knows she can't, it's against all rules and ethics. Jisoo knows she can't follow her heart this time and that makes her so sad. It's a choice, either to choose her feelings or the rules, and she picks the rules.

A tear falls down her cheek.

"Jisoo, why are you crying? Did I say something wrong?" Haein says in a worried tone. He carefully reaches out to wipe the tear off her face.

"No, Haein, I just...can't..." Jisoo turns her face away.

"Jisoo you are making me confused, what do you mean you just can't?"

"Haein, I can't explain to you right now. It's right that you have this feeling, it's just means that you are getting closer to the day to get out of here. It's just, I can't reciprocate this feeling, I feel the same but I can't show you the feeling, you'll understand one day."