PSYCHO

MEANT TO BE :)

Jisoo looks into Haein's teary eyes, she can't think of anything right now. He looks so vulnerable, just like the time he was her patient. Time hasn't taken anything away from him, yet it took so much away from her. 

"Give me an answer Jisoo, do you love me?"

Now that's the hardest question.

"I want to say I love you, Haein, but I can't."

"Then I'll have to find out myself." Haein states firmly. 

"What do you mea-"

Jisoo couldn't even finish her sentence when she feels a pair of soft and warm lips on hers. 

Haein's lips brushes against Jisoo's in a tender peck, but fueled by the desire that was hidden for the past few years.

Caught off guard by his boldness, Jisoo is momentarily stunned, her heart racing as she feels the unexpected rush of desire coursing through her veins. She closes her eyes as she feels Haein gently deepening the kiss. Though she should have pushed him away, she found herself responding to him, her inhibitions melting away as she surrendered to the intoxicating sensation.

Jisoo relaxes and runs her fingers lazily through his hair. Her shaky breaths in between his movements fuels him with energy and life that he hasn't felt for the past years. 

"I feel it, Jisoo, you love me, I feel it in our kiss."

Jisoo doesn't respond but stares at him. She doesn't know what to think about right now. She feels her logical senses leaving her brain. 

"Say something, please, just give me a rejection and I won't appear in your life again." 

Haein is desperate waiting for an answer from Jisoo.

Haein's taste lingers on her lips, Jisoo could feel the burning sensation still.

"Jisoo, please wait for me..." Haein's deep and a bit hoarse voice lingers next to Jisoo's ear. He places gentle kisses on her shoulder, light enough to not leave any marks.

Jisoo pushes themselves slightly apart, reapplies some lipstick and starts calling her secretary. Haein grabs her phone quickly enough to stop her from doing so.

"I need to leave." Jisoo doesn't dare to look at Haein right now as her face are extremely red.

"Are you going to run away from the reality every time you encounter it? Like you did before? Again?" Haein's voices trembles as tears leave his eye. "You haven't even give me an answer why you left me behind. I want to know why we just can't be together? WHY?"

"I'm sorry, Haein."

"For what? You never-"

"I'm sorry...for your family's misfortune, I would do everything I could to repay it but I can't." Jisoo tries to say it without tearing up but failed.

"What do you mean repay? You have nothing to do with it." Haein's words are followed with a moment of silence, "Right?"

"No Haein, this has been torturing me for the past years. That's why I never dare to cantact you. I already know that my dad is involved in the killing of your family. He provided all the money and equipments needed for that project, but I didn't know until you told me the story and I asked him. I...I am a killer's daughter, Haein..." Jisoo can't help but tears up. "I am very, very sorry for it and I know you will hate me with all your heart. But I promise I will never appear in your life ever again. I don't deserve you, you wouldn't even be in the hospital if it wasn't my dad who supports the project...He, he is desperately sorry for it and he cut off their supplies as soon as possible but, without him, your family wouldn't have been killed. I shouldn't have loved you, became your doctor nor ever appear in you life."

Then without hesitation, Jisoo runs out of the room in tears and asks Lisa to not follow her. She doesn't call a taxi and just keeps running until her feet start hurting because of her heels. 

Jisoo takes off her shoes and walks barefoot. Tears keep forming and it just won't stop. She knows that she probably looks like she's drunk but she couldn't care less about everything around her. 

After God knows how long, she finally arrives at the coast line. There isn't a lot of people there and she walks deeper down to the sea and sits on a rock. The wounds made from running in heels hurt when Jisoo puts her feet into the sea water, but she doesn't care because her heart is hurting even more. 

Jisoo murmurs to herself:

"All these time...I am really an idiot to think I still deserve his love, how can I be so selfish. He deserves someone who can really heal him and I am the worst person on this list. "

Jisoo can't help but cries out loudly and heartbroken. Tears flow down her cheeks like a waterfall. The coldness of the water mixed with the wind feels like even the world she's in doesn't care anymore.

After a long time, there isn't anyone at the beach anymore, but she's still sitting in the wind while cold water splashes on her bare legs.

"I am such a failure..." Jisoo buries her faces into her palms when she feels a warm hand on her shoulder.