Yours For Eternity (Taekook)

40: Nothingness

A bit of flashback again. This is Jungkook's version of chapter 37 'Tears of Blood'
Flashback:
Jungkook tried to fight... fight off the chains holding him down. Tears pricked his eyes as a huge way of grief hit him. The way his Tae screamed... The sorrow in it crushed him. Something told him he didn't have a lot of time yet, that he had to get to his mate now!
He was laying on the floor practically naked, he didn't care. With every last bit of strength he had, he fought, red gashes appeared on his body, but he didn't care. He felt as if his body was tearing apart, he didn't care. Finally shouting on top of his lungs, almost like a roar, he broke himself free from what ever was holding him down. He stood up, panting.
The witch had gotten stronger, feeding off a royal definitely showed results. He was bleeding all over, but that didn't stop him. He felt someone throw him some cloth, he wrapped it around himself carelessly.
The fear was building in him. He could feel danger laughing at him. His heart sped up, thudding harshly against his chest. It scared him.
He banged on the door, kicking and pushing it trying to get it open. It wouldn't budge, as if something very heavy and strong was holding it in place, preventing him from entering. His wolf sensed something very evil and danger in there and he knew it was coming for his Tae.
He screamed and cried, as he scratched and banged on the metal door. Something told him that he was going to lose. That everything was crumbling down. But he refused. Refused to acknowledge that.
He kept screaming for his mate. Shouting for someone to open this door. He could hear the witch laughing behind him as if she was enjoying his pain. There were people screaming and shouting. But for him everything was a blur. All he wanted was to get to his Tae and hold him in his arms, making sure he's safe and protected.
He was restless. Everything was screaming wrong and then it happened. The emptiness was slowly going away as he felt the bond thumping in him. Whatever was blocking him from his mate just lifted. But he wasn't happy. He was scared.
'Tae... Baby!'
He felt pain. It was shattering him. He seized all his movement and stilled. His feet went cold. Every memory of him and his Taehyung flashed on his mind. But he knew this wasn't him. It was his mate. Affection and love for him gushed through the link and he shuddered. This time it was suffocating him. Everything was slowly fading away. Slowly... Painfully... His Tae was fading away. No!
Then he heard it. But this wasn't the way he ever wanted to hear it. It was apologetic and sorrowful. The voice was soothing and he felt him whisper right into his ears.
'I love you Jungkook.'
Everything stopped. The world stopped. He fell on his knees. His eyes wide and threatened.
'T-Tae...'
There was nothing. Nothing was left.
He felt his wolf screaming, clawing inside him. But he didn't react, he didn't move. For him everything just stopped.
He scrambled upon his feet. Suddenly he was thrown back, sending him flying to the wall and getting slammed onto it. The door flung open and he saw him. His Tae. Lifeless and pale. His body tortured and broken. His eyes closed, there was a small smile that was still visible on his face.
Jungkook choked up. This can't be real. This can't be happening. This was just a nightmare. His worst nightmare. He refused to believe this is real. This is not real. He's probably asleep with his mate in his arms and when he'll wake up, he'll see his adorable baby sleeping on him. And when his baby wakes up he'll complain about his nightmare and his baby will hold him close and comfort him telling he'll never leave him. Yes. That's how it is. He was having a nightmare.
A lifeless laugher left his lips. Maybe he should slap or pinch himself to wake up from this mess. He did. He slapped himself and pinched himself till his blood was spilled. But he didn't wake up. He slapped himself over and over again each time his force increasing. Was it the physical pain? But he felt his tears flow. He wiped them away harshly and pinched himself again.
He felt someone prying his hands away form himself. He growled and glared at the person who at the moment he couldn't care to recognize. Can't they see he'd enough of this fucked dream. This was so painful. So painfully real.
"Jungkook stop it! Please stop it!" He felt that person sob onto his hands. He looked up again. Taehyung was still there. Still dead. Dead. DEAD.
"Why am I not waking up?" He mumbled to himself.
"This isn't a nightmare Jungkook." He heard that person mumble back.
Not a nightmare. Then what? Then what is this? Was Marylin playing some stupid games with his mind again. If she is, he's going to murder her.
"He is gone Kook... He's gone..."
Jungkook paused. "No. He's not. He's there. He's still there. This is some kind of illusion. This is not real." He mumbled again.
"Jungkook... Please... Don't do this."
"What are you trying to do huh? Make me believe that my Tae is dead? No he's not. He's still alive. Stop playing around."
"I'm not... I'm not Jungkook... please."
Jungkook pushed that man off him. "Shut up shut up. Just shut up. You're lying. Stop lying." He screamed at the man who he still can't recognize.
Jin finally had it. He stalked forward and slapped Jungkook hard on his face. Then held him gently by his shoulders.
"Jungkook... This is real. He's gone. He left us."
He stumbled back. No. His Tae left him? No. That can't happen. Then why was Jin saying so? This can't be real right? This can't be real. This shouldn't be real. How can it be? Doesn't Tae know that he can't exist without him?
He blinked and stared at Jin. He saw him crying, his eyes lifted again and darted back into the room. This time the image hit him hard. His eyes stuck on the lifeless body.
"Tae... T-Tae...? Hyung... Tae... Why...?" His  voice broke. Tears streamed out of his eyes as he felt the huge hollow within him, leaving him almost as a corpse.
From the corner of his eyes he saw him. The man who ruined everything. The man who destroyed his everything. With trembling feet he began to step towards the man.
He saw him rushing out of the room and whisper something to the witch. Her face thought twisted into worry first, then broke into a glee. And he wanted to kill. She dared to smile? He'll kill them.
But before he could the lady pulled out a wisp of black smoke form the man's chest to her own. She shivered a bit before laughing like a maniac.
She waved her hand and next thing, the whole place began to burn down. Jungkook watched as fire spread and flare in the room where his Tae was tied up. He ran forwards. He had to get him down. He can't let his baby get hurt. Burns would hurt.
But before he could step into the room, Jungkook was pulled back, he felt hands dragging him away. Away from his baby.
"No! Let me go... I need to go to him... My baby is hurting... Let go." Jungkook screamed.
"Stop it Kook. He's dead. He can't feel anymore. He's dead. You're alive and you need to get out of here now."
He's dead. He can't feel. He's dead. Dead. Dead.
Wait, then why is he alive? He shouldn't be alive. He should have been dead too. He should be with his baby.
With all his strength he shrugged off the hands that were holding him and ran towards the fire, which by now had almost swallowed up the entire building.
"No! Jungkook! Yoongi hold him down! Hoseok not you too...!"
He felt someone jump on him, holding him down onto the ground.
"No... Let me go. I want to go to my baby. Tae...! Tae...!" He screamed. But the person was cruel. He wasn't letting him go to his baby.
"For gods sake Kook. You're a royal, jumping into fire won't kill. Stop this madness please..."
Jungkook stopped thrashing around. He sobbed into the ground.
"Please... Please hyung kill me... I can't... Please kill me please..."
Yoongi closed his eyes and held the broken boy close. Hugging him. Trying to give him as much as comfort as he could.
"Jungkook. I can't and I won't. You think Tae would like that?"
"B-But how will I... w-without him..."
Yoongi sighed. He too was crying. He didn't have any answer. He just held him and never let his grip go loose on him.
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Two days after:
Jungkook was curled up on his and Taehyung's bed, hugging himself as he kept screaming and crying. The bloodied cover and clothes didn't bother him. The pain was too much. Mentally and physically. He just wanted to die. But no one was helping him. Can't they see his pain. Can't they see he's not living anymore. He's dead. He died with his baby. Dead. DEAD.
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A week after:
Cold. So cold. There's nothing warm anymore. It's just cold. He hasn't moved from his place, still on the bed, curled up. He refused to go out or let anyone inside. Everyone is cruel. No one is helping him. No one. Why won't they let him go to his baby?
Dried tear stains on his cheeks, he didn't open his eyes. With his eyes closed he could see his baby. Smiling and giggling. His doe eyes sparkling as always.
"You're so adorable..." He mumbled.
He smiled ignoring the pain he felt. He'd refused healers to help him. And he'd refused his own wolf to heal him up. His wounds bare and slowly decaying. The blood covered clothes still unchanged.
He heard a knock on his door. As usual he ignored it. Whoever or whatever it was, he didn't care anymore. He didn't have a reason to.
Again there was knock, louder this time. He still didn't move. Nor open his eyes.
"Why didn't you take me along? Was I such a bother?" He whispered, broken.
The knocking continued and kept getting louder.
"Jungkook please open the door.  I have to tell you something important." He recognized the voice, it was the elder.
He scoffed. How important can it be? Nothing is important anymore.
"Jungkook please... It's about Taehyung. Open the door please."
At that Jungkook snapped his eyes open. The blood red eyes shot towards the door. He contemplated. It was about Tae. Tae was important. Should he go?
Sighing he got up. The pain couldn't even get him to wince a little. He dragged himself to the door and opened it.
The elder gasped at the sight of the royal prince.
"What?" Jungkook snapped at him.
"Can I come inside?"
Jungkook frowned but then nodded reluctantly.
The man entered inside. Just as the prince, even the room was a mess. But the elder didn't comment.
"What is it about Tae?"
The elder took a deep breath.
"You had a soulmate bond with him didn't you?"
Jungkook glared at the man. Was he here to waste his time.
"Yes, you did. Well after a lot of discussion and search we've come to know about something. And I'm sure this is important for you."
Jungkook kept silent. He wanted the man to finish his rant and get out already.
"I'm sure this will make you happy again..." Jungkook wanted to laugh. Happy? Right... as if he even knew what that meant anymore.
"...Since you've had a soulmate bond with your mate, your souls have acknowledged and owned each other, such two souls will always try to stay together."
"Huh?" What was this old man blabbering about?
"Your souls, they will always try to stay with one another. Together. So no matter what at the end. You'll be together again."
Jungkook felt his heart beat inside his chest again. "You mean..."
"What I mean Jungkook, is yes. He will comeback. He'll be born again. Just to be with you. No matter how long it takes. He will come back."
Jungkook didn't know what to say or do. He simply stared at the man. Was he telling the truth? His Tae will comeback?
"Kookie I love you. I will always love you... Always. No matter what, please remember that. Know that whatever happens Taehyung will always be with his Jungkook and will always return to his Jungkook. Stay safe Kookie... I love you so much."
He remembers. He remembers those words clearly. His Tae did say he will come back. He will return just for him.
Tears filled his eyes again. This time it wasn't sadness. It was hopefulness. He ran to the elder and hugged the man tightly muttering thousands of thank you's.
Now he will wait. Wait for his baby to come back. No matter how long it takes, he will wait. He will keep breathing till then so that he can live once more.... Once more when he will meet his baby again. Till then he will wait.
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Months later:
As he had promised he was still breathing. He'd let the healers treat him and remove all his wounds and scars. But they didn't succeed in removing his largest wound that was still there fresh and bleeding.
He did everything. He went everywhere. But he never lived. He had shut himself up. He remained as the prince. Only prince, but never Jungkook. Jungkook will wait. Wait for his Taehyung to return.