Jasper's pov
These feelings never leave. They never have, never will. You could ask me the same question, and for the past 6 years I could give you the same answer.... but now it's changed.... there's something in my heart, a hole in my heart, that I don't know how to heal.....It's like these feelings for Juno have changed, my mind have shifted to different aspects of our relationship, how much I hate having to call her my girlfriend, to have her introduce me to her co workers as her boyfriend, I hate that title, I hate being Juno's boyfriend, being her boyfriend, it eats me up now.
I want to be more, I don't Juno to be my girlfriend, to come home, calling her my girlfriend. I don't want her to come home, calling me her boyfriend.
I want to be more, I want Juno to be my wife, to come home, calling her my wife. I want her to come home calling me her husband.
And that led to this evening.
"Hi, what can I get for you?" "Hi, I um, I'm looking for a ring." "Oh, okay, anything specific?" I thought for a second. "Do you have something..............."
When the jeweler had showed me the ring, it was amazing. It was an amazing, beautiful ring, that I knew Juno would love.
I had went home and sat there at my desk. Thinking to myself..... This would happen tonight. Juno was at my parents' house and for all she knew, Alicia was going to have help her get her nails done.
What if she says no? What if she's not ready? I know we have talked about this time and time again... But... what if she's not ready?
