Rileys POV
I stood in the mirror, looking back at my reflection. It had been two weeks since my mom had passed, two weeks since the fight with Victoria, and in that two weeks I haven't been myself. My eyes had dark circles, my lips were dry, and I was alot skinnier. I haven't been eating. Not because I want to starve myself but because I haven't had an appetite, and if I do, I just throw everything up.
Colton came up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist. "Hi princess." I leaned against him. "Are you going down to Scott's office today?" He nodded. "Do you want to come with me?" I looked at him and nodded. "Yeah." He placed a tender kiss on my lips. "Oh by the way, I set you up a spa day. You need it and deserve it."
He let go of me so I could get dressed. I pulled on jeans and a comfy tee shirt with converse. I pulled my hair into a bun, then put some concealer on to hide the circles. I then brushed my teeth, rubbed on some deodorant, then sprayed some body spray. "I will be in the car when you're ready." He kissed my cheek before walking out.
I grabbed my phone and wallet.
Mom's funeral is in three weeks so we are flying back out to New York.
I rushed out to the car, sliding in the passengers seat.
Colton held my hand with his free one. "You okay?" I shrugged. "I'm breathing and alive, so that's good." He chuckled lightly. "We aren't going to Scott's office." I raised my eyebrow. "Then where the hell are we going?" He sighed. "Well I was thinking, remember about a year and a half ago, we were trying to have a kid, every test you took would be negative? Then you got on a pill. Well I thought maybe something was wrong, and decided to set up an appointment to see if there is a possible way that we keep you pregnant. Since you wouldn't always keep the baby."
I bit my lip. "You could've talked to me about it." He nodded. "I know, but you would've just denied that anything was wrong." I nodded. "Sounds like me."
He pulled into the parking lot and we headed inside for my appointment. We had signed in and sat down in the waiting room. "What if we can't have a family?" Colton kissed my head. "Just relax for now princess." After about fifteen minutes, my name was called.
"Riley Black?"
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Two weeks later
It had been two weeks since my appointment and I checked the mail, seeing the envelope I had been waiting for. I should wait until Colton comes home. Except he won't be home until like midnight.
I ripped open the envelope and quickly read through it.
My eyes welled up with tears, my body felt numb, and I fell to my knees. I cried. I can't have kids. I am not able to to have them.
The front door opened and Colton rushed over to me. "Princess, what happened?" He tilted my chin up. "I'm sorry Colton, I'm sorry." He wiped my tears. "What are you sorry about princess?" I held the letter.
"I can't have kids. I'm not able to." He pulled away from me. "Then how come back in high school, you got pregnant?" I shrugged. "That was four years ago." He stood up, grabbed his phone and sat down on the couch for a second. "We can't have kids." Colton muttered to himself. "Colton. I'm so sorry." He shook his head.
"Stop Riley, it isn't your fault." He stood up and paced. "I need to go." I frowned. "Colton where are you going?" He shrugged. "I need to leave for a little bit." I shook my head. "Please don't leave." He clenched his jaw, running a hand through his hair. "Never mind Colton." I stood up, and run to our room.
No getting to make breakfast for my child. No waking up to them jumping on the bed. No family photos. No waking up at three in the morning to cuddle them when they cry. No watching them grow. No family with Colton.
I mean there is adoption, but I don't want to lie to a child and have them find out then resent me. It hurts so much to find out the people you loved and grew with aren't even your real family. It sucks.
I pulled on some knee length spandex and a shirt of Coltons. Arms wrapped around my waist and I was turned around. His face was wet with tears. I took his head in my hands. "Riley, everything is so god damn stressful." I pulled my head into his chest, hugging him tight. "I know Colton."
He hugged my waist, picking me up. He grabbed his keys with my still in his arms. "Colton, where are we going?" He kissed my forehead.
"No where."
Coltons POV
I can't have a family with Riley. Everything was so good, then it just started spiraling downwards.
Right now, Riley was sleeping in the passengers seat, finally. She had been crying for hours. I wasn't joking when I said we were going no where. We had been driving for about four hours now.
I drove up the familiar hill.
I parked at the very top, which looked over a lake and a small town. I turned off the car, making sure all of the windows were up. Riley popped up out of her deep sleep and looked at me.
"Where are we?" She asked groggily. "Nowhere." She softly smiled and closed her eyes. I reached over and held her hand. Her small hand gently squeezed my own. "I love you Colton." I gently tugged her hand, signaling her to climb over the console and into my lap. She did.
After a few bumps on the head, she was in my lap. I took her face in my hands, placing a tender kiss on her lips. "I love you so much." I told her.
I leaned the seat back, letting Riley get comfortable. Which was hard because it was the drivers seat. She curled in a ball, while my arms were wrapped around her.
I kissed the top of her head. "Princess, I know I probably shouldn't tell you this now, but Scott won't let you come on tour with me." She looked up at me. "I know Colton, I heard you on the phone with him." I frowned. "Oh okay." She laid her head back down on my chest. "And he thinks he is crazy if he isn't letting me go on tour with you." I chuckled, kissing her forehead. "Well let's not worry about anything right now." She nodded.
"Let's just enjoy nowhere."
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