Stiffled Desires

Chapter 4

Friday sneaked up on me unnoticed! With the number of crazy events that happened to me during the week, I was completely lost in the days of the week, and therefore, when Alex came up to me a little before the end of the working day and patted me on the back so habitually, I was even befuddled!

- So, buddy, to the bar as usual!? – Everything seemed to be as usual, his smiling face, his usual voice tone, but something was still strange! More precisely, I perceived it differently, now I could not see him as just a friend!

- Sorry, but today probably won't work! – I just can't imagine us together in a bar! Also, Lera has to come to me tomorrow morning, and I believe I'm going to have a hard time, so it's better not to touch alcohol today!

- Vic, is it because of what happened between us in the last few days? - Alex leaned towards me and almost whispered it to my ear. I immediately remembered the last time, when he kissed me on the cheek! Instinctively, I tried to pull away from him, feeling myself blushing.

- Partly! – I didn't see any point in lying. – And I already have plans for tomorrow morning, which you probably know about, I think I should get some rest today!

- Pity! Apparently, this time I'll have to look for something else to do! – Alex pulled his hand in my direction to pat me on the back and it made my insides clench! Am I always going to react like this from now on? – I wish you girls have fun tomorrow! - He said quietly so that only I could hear.

The next day I woke up rather early, as the feeling of unease did not leave me. Lera will come soon and then there will be no way back, not that such opportunity exists now, but after she starts to turn me into something resembling a girl, everything will change. I'm scared! It's scary to give up on my masculinity, even for a while, it's scary that a moaning feeling arises somewhere inside, it's like there another entity that craving to break free. Yes, everything that Lera will do to me will not be irreversible, but what if it turns out that I like to feel like a girl? For many years I tried to hide such thoughts, to convince myself that these are just dirty fantasies that every person has, even if in different manifestations! And now I will find myself in a situation where all this will come out!

I didn't want to think further about the possible consequences at all, and I decided to distract myself with cooking, besides, it would be logical, there might not be another opportunity today, and I wouldn't really like to sit hungry!

Lera once again turned out to be devilishly punctual, as if she was standing at the door looking at the clock to ring the doorbell at exactly nine in the morning! Today, her appearance was even more unusual. A short white T-shirt with a large neck that allowed you to see the straps of her bra and denim shorts, seductively tight around her ass. However, this beautiful view was slightly disrupted by a rather large backpack and an even more huge bag on her shoulder.

This girl again shamelessly walked right into the living room and only there she spoke with me:

- Well, Vicky, are you ready to part with your masculinity? - Her voice sounded playful and somehow ominous.

- Well, first of all, good morning, Lera! Secondly, don't you hurry a bit? Aren't you going to change my appearance within a month?

- The main thing is to start! By the way, I would recommend that you start talking about yourself in more feminine form from today! – The girl enthusiastically disassembled the bag, laying out different boxes on the coffee table that stood in the middle of the room.

- I think it's too early for that! - I nodded my head at the rows of boxes lining up. - By the way, what's all this for?

- Why ask about obvious things? If you need more details, just wait a bit! - Lera made a short pause, and then continued. - Actually, I think I'm going to have a genuine pleasure today! For a long time, I had the urge to rip out your goatee! - Lera looked at me for just a moment, flashing her eyes, but it gave me goosebumps.