Stiffled Desires

Chapter 18

I wish I could say that now that I've accepted myself like this, everything has changed, but in fact it only affected that I stopped worrying unnecessarily over it. Saturday came and Alex and I were going to visit Lera. I was standing at the wardrobe in just my underwear and choosing an outfit for the evening.

- Are you going to tease me like this? - Alex asked, lying on the bed, staring at me lasciviously.

- I'm not doing anything like that! You yourself decided to tear yourself away from the computer to observe your wife! – I stopped shunning him while changing clothes, he accepted my body the way it was, and most importantly, I accepted myself! Although this does not mean that I will stop striving to acquire a more feminine outline!

- How about you come sit next to me and have a little fun?

- Well, who's teasing now!? – It's been four days since we had sex, but even the abundance of lubricant did not save me from the consequences. - No matter how much I want this, we'll have to wait until tonight! I don't really want to sit at Lera's house with an itchy ass!

Evening came, I stood in the entryway in front of the mirror, assessing how a leather short coat was combined with a pleated fern green maxi skirt and a black jumper. Putting on high suede boots and taking my purse, I left the apartment with Alex.

- I know that you don't really like such statements, but you look great! - Alex said as we stood outside waiting for a taxi.

- Actually, I really like to hear compliments, it's just that there is an obsessive thought inside that this is being said only out of politeness! - I leaned my head against my husband's shoulder.

- I think you're being too hard on yourself! Although I understand why you have these doubts... but you don't look any different from an attractive woman!

- I am pleased that you think so, perhaps my efforts are really not in vain!

A car drove over and Alex gallantly opened the door for me and helped me sit in. To be honest, I was already getting used to such little things and displays of attention, and even more I did not understand why some women were so opposed to such things, in any case, I am myself really liked it!

I would like to clarify, has Lera told you about their strange relationship with Nina? – My date started a conversation along the way.

- So, you know that things are not going smoothly between them? Anyway, it's not right to gossip! What if I wasn't aware of this situation? - A little indignantly, I nudged Alex, who was sitting next to me.

- Considering how close friends you have become lately; I doubt that you have so many secrets from each other!

- It's funny how relationships change sometimes. Did you know that Lera was very jealous of you when we were just friends?

- I had a hunch! We've been through a lot with her, she's almost like a sister to me!

- Sister? - I looked at him slyly. – Somehow it doesn't fit with the fact that you've dated before!

- Did she tell you about that, too? - Alex frowned in displeasure.

- What's so surprising about that? Or are you afraid that now I will start to be jealous of your ex, with whom you spend almost more time than with me? - I giggled playfully. – Knowing Lera, I suspect that there was something intimate between you even after you broke up!

- Just once! - He blushed rather amusingly. - You don't worry about that at all?

- Not at all! – I lied when I said that, even though it was before me, it was annoying for me to imagine my man with another woman! Damn, how did I manage to get so deep into this situation!