Stiffled Desires

Chapter 2

Alas, all my steadfast determination to simply refuse was crushed by the broad smile of my boss sprawled in his chair of his office.

- Well, Vic, you've had a few days to think about my proposal! - His searching gaze seemed to bore into my very soul. – I understand that you have hardly come to a final decision, but do you have any thoughts about this?

Of course, I had some thoughts, but for some reason I couldn't voice them, sitting in the chair opposite Alex, I felt like a mouse foolishly trapped in the territory of a mater cat. Perhaps this was because now I was not sitting in front of my friend, but like an employee in front of the boss, in addition to our specific conversation, I still had to get a thumping for mistakes in the report I was making yesterday!

- I do not know what to answer you, to be honest, I still can't even understand why you need it at all!? – once again, I tried to move the topic at least a little, and not give a direct answer, especially knowing that my refusal would not be accepted and I would have to listen to the advantages of Alex's offer.

- You won't be satisfied with the answer that I was just curious, will you? - He stared at the ceiling and began to rub his hands lightly, as if trying to collect his thoughts. – We've been friends for probably about six months, and I've been watching your behavior. You are responsive, attentive and kind by nature! In the office, apart from me and Serge, you communicate mainly with girls, but you haven't tried to have a relationship with any of them! You are surprisingly able and love to cook, and you are also very neat. Even before your revelation, I was already thinking that if you were a girl, I would start courting you! – after a rather long tirade, he glanced straight into my eyes and continued. – On Friday I was perhaps too drunk, because in a sober state I would hardly have come to such a conclusion, but if you want to be a girl, then why not give you such an opportunity, besides, I can get something out of it myself!

— It all sounds so weird... even if you put me in a dress, lay on a ton of makeup and make me wear fake breasts, it won't make me a woman, I'll just be a man in disguise! – I shook my head sadly – And what kind of strange gender prejudices, all that you described does not make me feminine! Yes, I'm not a dork, but nothing more!

- Well, if it not makes you one, so be it, what's the problem!? Tell me, but without pretending and lying, aren't you attracted to the idea of being... okay, pretending to be a woman for a month? – there was such a strange motivation in his voice, which also tainted me with curiosity and desire.

- Without lying, okay! Yes, I would like to become a woman, but what you are offering me will not be able to give me these desired feelings, I rather be just disgusted with myself and nothing more!

Alex didn't let me continue and started talking as if he hadn't heard most of what I had just said:

- You finally admitted that you want to try it! That's great, let's discuss the details tonight, I'll tell you how I view it all! - His eyes seemed to sparkle, and he began to chatter instead of the usual measured speech.

- What!? – I was really surprised how everything happens according to his scenario, as if I don't even have a choice... - I didn't agree to anything!

- I am sure that after getting the details you will have no reason to refuse! Which restaurant would you like to go to talk about the details?

- Are you completely crazy to discuss such things in a public place!? – What am I doing, I answer as if I have already agreed to spend the evening with him!

- You're right, such things should be discussed in private, then let's do it at my house, and in the meantime, you will look at the apartment in which you will spend a month with me!