It was another Friday, and today was my last working day before the so-called business trip! I looked at the calendar and was a little horrified, the twenty-fifth of September, almost a month has passed since that fateful evening on the last days of summer! The upcoming weekend should be very eventful, Lera is planning to make the last adjustments to my appearance, and we also plan a shopping trip! "A girl should have a choice of clothes for any situation, and you will not be an exception" - Lera told me something similar at the beginning of my transformation, now I completely agree with her and catch myself in a little excitement!
At the end of the working day, Alex was waiting for me near the parking lot.
- Do you mind if we are going somewhere for a while?
- Would you like come to my place a little later?
- No! – He answered a little abruptly. – Today is the last day when I see you like this... I would like to chat with Victor.
After a short discussion, we decided to go to the restaurant where I lately have lunches with Lera. We chose the most secluded table so that our slightly strange conversation would not attract unnecessary attention.
- I wanted to talk with you, as we did before.... - Alex said those words as if they were weighing on him.
- But the upcoming events are already taking their toll on our relations, and I can see that you are just as uncomfortable as I am. - I completed sentence of my friend.
- Vic, are you sure we should do this? If you want, we can end this whole story right now!
I tilted my head slightly looking at Alex. All my gestures took on a more feminine air. Although I made an effort for this, I could no longer switch to normal behavior.
- Are you worried about my feelings or are you just afraid to admit to yourself that now you have doubts?
The man in front of me stayed silent for a while before answering:
- I think I'm just trying to shift the final decision on to you, because you right I'm a little bit scared now that it's become so real!
- I have decided everything for myself a long time ago, I made too much effort to quit now. Besides, you invested so much money in my transformation...
- Money is a trifle! The real question is what might happen between us!
- Mutual attraction, with sex as possible outcome, didn't you want it yourself? - It was hard to spell, as it was against my nature!
- It seemed like something fun at the time... I didn't realize how much different you will become... - the man was sitting with his hands on his head, clearly not quite understanding his feelings.
- Alex! You have another six days to decide, after all, it was your idea! I will continue my preparations! - I made short pause - You know, I probably already get what I wanted, and if you refuse, I'll be fine with it!
– I stood up, leaving my friend alone at the table and left the restaurant. I perfectly comprehended all his feelings, I myself had similar thoughts, but I definitely did not want him to sow additional doubts in me, now when it was already just the last step left to take!
(Author's notes. From now on, Victor will talk with people as if he is a woman. But in his thoughts, he will still address himself as a man. Unfortunately, I do not know how to show this in English without constantly resorting to footnotes like "he said it in a feminine manner")
The next morning, I went to Lera place again, although this time just a backpack wasn't enough to fit everything I needed today. Last week I started noticing that the hair on my body started growing again, and now it was irritating me, especially considering that I shouldn't have done anything with them to make today's depilation go more smoothly. I chuckled slightly at the thought that came to my mind about how much I had changed over the past month, or rather, that I had allowed myself to get into the role of a girl! It changed my perception a lot, especially the way I began to relate to my appearance! It became uncomfortable for me to wear men's clothes and even the thought of wearing boring men's underpants caused aversion!
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Stiffled Desires
Romansa"You know, sometimes I look at girls with envy, I wish I could be as they are," - Said a tipsy Victor to his friend. The story about a young man who accidentally let slip about his stupid and seemingly unrealizable secret desires. But the curiosity...
