The Five Souls - The Beginning

chapter 25: stay away!!!

looking down becka was giving me a big smile. 

"I like her." she said

concerned at how happy she was that I found someone new I said 

"you know it's ok to miss mommy." 

"I know. but you said that Mommy was never gone. I can feel her daddy. I'm ok." she said this then started to skip down the hall towards the break room. looking up I just shook my head. don't get me wrong. She was happy, and I knew she should be happy about that. but a part of me was angry. angry I was even in this position. angry that she was there one minute and then gone the next. but most of all I was angry I didn't say goodbye. 

the day she died we got into a fight. she worked at danax too. She was part of the accounting team. She hated working there but it paid the bills. the insurance and benefits were great. the people not so much. The boss was the boss. but Adrian she didn't like. he was demanding, and controlling, and gave her weird looks.  but she was smart and knew how to handle it. well, that day she came home from work and let me hear about him. She was so angry I thought that she would be fine if she just let it go and not let him get to her. I grabbed her and said "Just do not worry about it. be happy." I told her all the good stuff and she could tell I was annoyed with the complaining. she was so tired of my happy attitude that she walked out and got in the car. a few hours later less than a mile away from the house I was called to identify if that was in fact, my wife.

when I looked at her her usually bright auburn eyes looked dead. rigor mortis kicked in and the look of pure fear was on her face with her neck in an unnatural position to the side. this wrecked me. I couldn't stand looking at her but I couldn't look away. I just crumbled and started weeping. then anger unlike any other I've ever felt hit me. when that hit I screamed and stood straight up. I demanded to know who killed her.

 the thoughts running through my mind were pure rage. I was going to kill him if I could get my hands on him. I was going to strangle the life out of the dark blank eyes. I was going to rain hell on the family. I was going to be the darkness that encapsulated me as a kid. I was going to go back to the person I swore not to be. but was stopped dead when I heard Becka in the back.

"Daddy, where is Mommy? why is Mommy's car broken?" Becka said. she looked at the gurney and at that point, the officers covered her face again but her hand was hanging out. the hand with our wedding ring. She noticed the ring and started running toward the gurny calling out for mommy. I grabbed her before she could reach the gurney.

"Honey don't look," I said. but instead of responding to me Becka just kept screening her mom's name hitting my back.

as they put her body in the EMS vehicle she started screaming again and hitting even harder saying "Let me go."

she was unconsolable for hours and was just angry for days. She never was the same. she never went back to the becka before her mom died. not that I blame her. I was the same. the man I was before was gone replaced with a shattered hollow husk of the man I was before. I felt like a seesaw and I was coming down back to where I started before I met Terra. that man was someone I did not want to go back to.

  "Honey, stop running. you may fall," I said snapping back to reality only to see her slip. likoff of a cartoon.

my heart stopped. then my blood ran cold as Adrian turned the corner and rushed toward her. 

"wait don't hurt her!!!!" I screamed before I realized what I was even saying.

"you idiot. why would I hurt her? She's bleeding!" Adrian screamed back. my heart was racing. blood was starting to pour out onto the floor.