I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything I know I'm not the best at alot of things and I wish I could make you happy and proud but I know I can't and I don't know if I ever will but I'll always try to make you happy even if it breaks me and I know your not proud of me but I'm trying I really am but I'm breaking and some of you are breaking me down and it might be how you feel but that's okay because I don't care that you shouldn't be talking to me like that the thing that bothers me is that how you feel that way about me I know I'm a horrible daughter and especially a horrible sister but I will always try to make you happy even if I never succeed. The only part that really hurts is that there was ONE person who constantly reminded me of what i was doing wrong and it made me not like her and I wanted to make her proud and I couldn't ever do it she told me everything wrong with me. But then they told me she was getting sick so we went to see her more and she started to be nice and tell me I was pretty and smart and I started to like her more and care about her alot and then we seen her and she wouldn't really talk to anyone and she seemed so different but not in the good way then 2 days after I woke up and they told me she died that hit hard and I still never got to make her proud.
