I grew up the wrong way. I can't communicate properly and it's not because I don't want to it's because I grew up in a house where instead of communicating they shouted and threw things. I didn't have a childhood because I grew up with instability I grew up constantly moving anytime there was a problem. I grew up being told " stop crying or I'll give you a reason to cry" instead of comfort. I grew up with cops in and out of my house and to the point where I had to call the cops on my own dad. I grew up thinking it was okay to throw things and shut down instead of growing up with communication. When I grew up I had to pretend everything was okay and lie to everyone when I knew it wasn't okay and it's still that way I still have to pretend everything is smooth and it isn't but I can't tell ANYONE not even the people closest to me what goes on at home. I grew up the wrong way.
