I was told today " you don't really talk" and it got me thinking because when I'm around my freind I talk perfectly fine but around those certain people I get really quiet and I just said it was nothing but in reality I knew it's because everytime I talk they either don't pay attention when I need them too or I say anything wrong and everything I do feels wrong so I stay quiet and don't talk because I'm scared to do something wrong so I just don't talk.... I stay to myself and read my books and if they ask me a question I think of what they want to hear and just say that even if it's no my the truth because I'm afraid to talk and say the wrong things so i say I'm okay or that I just zoned out but in reality I'm scared to talk around the people who are meant to be my " freinds" but around my real freinds is the only time I can talk and sometimes not even then
