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Ch 5.☘︎ ݁˖

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Jude's POV:

Finally, I'm out of Jules's clutches. We only have three classes together and she started throwing tantrum when she found out she had to attend the gymnastics class alone. It's not like I dislike her company; she's nice and my first friend after coming to this college. But still, her reputation and friend circle are quite telling me to maintain a very good distance from her.

It's not my fault that I’m so doubtful and picky about simply being friends. It’s about safeguarding my mental peace which I can’t risk again. It took so much effort to overcome all the criticisms about my weight and looks, given by the people I used to call friends.

The funny irony in human behavior is how we judge others based on their appearance while simultaneously resenting when others do the same to us. When we make someone feel insecure, it's often brushed off just as a joke. However, when we taste our own medicine, we lament about how cruel the world is and even cry about it. Humans are hypocrites, it seems ingrained in how society functions. This pattern of behavior has persisted through time and appears likely to be continued in future without any change.

Now that I’m confident enough to embrace who I am, I still prefer to keep my distance from other hormonal animals we call human beings. Do we even deserve to be called humans when there's so little humanity left in this world?

But it is what it is and I can’t change it nor do I want to.

What I truly want is to complete college as soon as possible, get a 9-to-5 job and settle down—with or without someone (depending on whether my parents will allow it). I crave stability and simplicity, free from the judgment that might cause me hurt. Might.

My past friendship hasn't been kind already, making it harder for me to trust people. I wish I could trust her if she genuinely wants to be my friend, a true friend.

Anyways.

Now, I'm standing in the library at my favorite section. 'Fiction'. Scrolling through the books—Fine Prints done, Cruel Prince done, Better Than Movies done.

God of wrath— wait, what the hell is this book doing here? Isn't it too inappropriate for a college library? I haven't read it yet but I've heard it's dark romance and contains trigger warnings.

I gulp, unsure. Should I read it or should I not? I glance around, seeing no one around. I sigh. "Okay, just a little. I promise I'll stop." I sit down at a corner table, ensuring no one notices me and started reading.