Start Over

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Y/n | Los Angeles, California

"Even when the sky comes falling
Even when the sun don't shine
I got faith in you and I
So put your pretty little hand in mine
Even when we're down to the wire, babe
Even when it's do or die
We could do it, baby, simple and plain
'Cause this love is a sure thing"

I bopped my head to Miguel's lyrics playing in my AirPods. I was laying back on my bed semi peacefully as I just got back home from doing a fifteen hour shift at the hospital dealing with all kinds of patients that came in day and night.

While I loved my job, these long ass shifts weren't gonna cut it. But, the pay was amazing for a doctor like me so you know what I'm gonna do?

Suck it up and probably do a twenty hour one tomorrow.

I sat up and threw my covers off of my lower half just as a familiar melodic voice played in my ears. The lyrics of Beyoncé's Love Drought played in my ears and I chuckled bitterly. Part of me is happy that she dropped this album to bashed that dumbass nigga for what he did but on the other hand, I hated that she went and married him after everything we been through.

Still, me being the person I am, I couldn't be mad at her at all. Shit, literally everyone got on my case when I supported her decision but nobody really knows what happened between us. Nobody knows what we went through individually. It's like no matter what we suffered, I still loved her and in vice versa. Even if we hadn't really spoken in almost fourteen years.

I got up and decided to make something to eat as it was about ten a.m and I only just got home at seven, took a shower, and laid in bed for almost two hours just staring at the ceiling and listening to music.

I decided to make some cream of wheat as I wasn't that hungry and it brought back memories of Mama Bailey making it for me and Beau whenever I used to spend the night at her house as kids.

While eating my delicious bowl of food, I got a FaceTime call interrupting my music. I groaned when I saw it was Nasir. I accepted the call and mugged him, "what nigga?" I immediately asked. He smacked his lips, "fuck you so hostile for, chump?" He asked me. I playfully rolled my eyes and swallowed the rest of my food before standing up. "Because I just got off a fifteen hour shift. Why's the first face I gotta see is you?" I asked him rhetorically. He chuckled, "when are you coming to see a nigga? Destiny has been asking for you" he asked me. I shrugged as I put my bowl into the sink. "Ion know. I can see if I can get some time off but you know how busy the hospital gets" I told him.

When I decided to go to college in 00', I never thought I would go the doctor route. I genuinely thought I would get something in music production but I gravitated towards the other. Long hours of study was how I used my time. Since I wasn't deep into the streets like my other family, people would just assume I was some gangster hood rat because of where I came from and who my family was but I was the exact opposite.