Start Over

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Beyoncé | Los Angeles, Bel Air

While Akira ran off to talk to Storm, Blue leaned on me as she was falling asleep. I knew it was nearing her nap time as it was only two in the afternoon.

"So, is Y/n coming over?" Mama asked me and I shrugged, "probably not. She says she has to go talk to Nas after work" I told her giving a suggestive look as I brushed my hands over Blue's head. "And what technically is the deal with you and her? Like, are y'all together or what?" Solange asked and I sighed, frustrated with all the sudden questions. "Why do we have to be together to raise her? We can't just co parent and leave it at that?" I asked.

We never even discussed our relationship. We only got to the part where we forgave each other for the way everything went down after Akira's kidnapping but besides that, we've just been simultaneously working to get Akira comfortable.

Before Solange can come up with a snarky comment about what I said, Akira came back from the kitchen with a bright smile on her face.

"Storm got you smiling all big huh?" Julez teased her who sat the opposite of me. She picked up a pillow and threw it at him, "shut up" she muttered, the blush clear on her face as she stuffed it into my side. I threw my free arm over her and she peaked up at the notion. "Tell him stop teasing me Mama" Akira muttered and I chuckled, "Leave my baby alone Daniel" I told him and he playfully stuck his tongue out at her which she didn't hesitate to give one back.

Please, they acted like Y/n and basically any of my sisters or Angie.

"Can Storm come over tomorrow? She had to go back to set for shooting but she promised to help me take my hair out. I can practically feel my scalp making oils" she told me with a disgusted look on her face. "Of course" I told her and she smiled brightly.

The rest of the afternoon was filled with laughter and the family getting to know Akira. Julez already held this protectiveness aura over and Akira held the same over Blue as she now held her baby sister against her while she talked adamantly to Julez about whatever.

She started calling Mama 'Grandma' which sent her into a frenzy and she called Kelly 'Godmommy' which made Kelly catch her in a bear hug. The way everyone was easily talking like Akira has been here since the beginning is honestly a mystery to but it's amazing.

Although, I still feel a little off whenever I think of the situation. Like, I know Y/n and Nas were working on catching Kanye, Kim, and Shawn, but, there was a nagging feeling that I just couldn't shake whenever I looked at Akira. I shook it off and deemed it as I was just being cautious of her possibly being taken from me.

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"Cmon Ivy, time to get ready for bed" I spoke to Blue as I watch her look back at me with a pout. She was playing dolls with Akira in her bedroom and now she looked like I just told her Akira was leaving a never coming back. "But mommy, Kira and I are playing" she told me. I smiled sadly and walked over to the two, squatting down. "I know baba but it's bed time and you still have school in the morning" I told her softly.

I watched as her bottom lip quivered, signaling she was about to start crying but Akira quickly stepped in.

"Baby Blue, I'll be here when you get back from school okay? We can play some more after you finish whatever homework you have" she bargained with the five year old. Blue looked to be in thought. I looked at Akira in amusement as it looked like she was actually trying to consider. Knowing Blue, she was just prolonging the inevitability of her going to bed. I know she's going to say yes regardless.

Blue finally shrugged and nodded, letting out a little yawn. "Okay" she said simply. 

See?

Akira let out a small chuckle and swooped the younger girl into her arms, rocking them side to side as she kissed her head. "kay, goodnight baby blue. I'll see you first thing in the morning" she told Blue. Blue leaned up and kissed her cheek before she was put down, "night sissy" she told Akira before running off to the bathroom.

I walked closer to Akira and kissed her forehead, "I'll come see you after I get her to bed. I put some of Julez clothes he had over here in your room, just until we go get your stuff tomorrow" I told her and she nodded, "okay, I'll see you in a bit" she told me, kissing my cheek and walking the opposite direction down the hall to her now room.

I moved to the bathroom where Blue was already splashing around in the tub. I got her washed and dried off fairly quickly. I debated on doing her hair but decided to do it in the morning since if I even tried to start now, I wouldn't get far. When she was in her pajamas, I got her into bed and read her a bedtime story before kissing her good night.

After I was done with her, I moved down the hall and softly knocked on Akira's door. I heard her yell 'come in' and I opened the door.

She was laying on the bed, talking on FaceTime. She looked over and gave me a smile. "Hey mom" she told me. I smiled and sat next to her, "hey baby" I told her. "Hey Bey!" Storm yelled. I chuckled and looked at the screen to see Storm smiling. "Hey Storm, what time you coming tomorrow?" I asked her. "Probably around noon" she told me and I nodded. "I'll call you tomorrow Storm" Akira told the girl. "Alright, nighty night pretty" Storm told her. "Night baby rue" she told the girl before hanging up.

I laid in bed next to her and she shuffled her head on my chest. I threw my arms over her and held her tightly.

"Mama?" She asked me. I smiled, never getting tired of hearing her call me that. "Yes Mookie?" I asked her. "Why aren't you and dad together again? Is it y'know because you were married to Shawn?" She asked me. I sighed, "we broke up about a year after your kidnapping. Honestly, I put the blame on myself. I caused her so much unnecessary stress and I kept saying things that I didn't mean but I was emotional so I ended up pushing her away" I explained. She tilted her head up, "so, how did you end up with Shawn?" She asked.

I twirled my finger over her braids, "I...I think I was so emotionally dis attached. I lost you, I wasn't with your dad anymore, I was internally crying while still trying to get my career up after being out of Destiny's Child. I was vulnerable. I'm sure Shawn just used that as his moment to reel me in and it worked" I told her.

I felt her shift in my hold. I looked down to already see her looking at me.

"What?" I asked. "Do you think Shawn had something to do with my kidnapping?" She asked me. I hesitated but nodded, "at first I didn't see it but I realized how much it makes sense. Kanye and Shawn are close. If it was his idea to execute the kidnapping and give you to Kanye, he was dumb as hell" I told her causing her to chuckle. She yawned nuzzling more into me.

"I talked to Aunt Kylie and asked why she let me go to Coachella if she knew I was a missing child. She said she knew that someone was going to recognize me. It was only a plus that Storm had us close to side stage so that you could see me" she told me with a smile.

I leaned down and kissed her head repeatedly causing her to chuckle tiredly.

"Well, I'm happy she did. I got my Mookie back" I told her. She giggled, accepting my overwhelming affection, "yeah and I found my actual mom and dad" she told me. "Do you feel whole?" I asked her. She nodded, "I felt empty for years. I felt warm with Auntie Kylie but with you and dad and everyone else, I feel like I belong" she told me.

I held her closely as I felt her breaths hitting my neck, "you do belong baba, you always did and always will" I told her softly.

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Hi lovelies 🫶🏾.
I love showing Akira and Bey's relationship like ugh 😩.
Y'all might hate me for the direction I chose to go for the three musketeers but oh well. I'll probably make it up in MMA 2 idk lmao.
Enjoy n comment n all that 🤸🏾‍♀️.