Start Over

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Beyoncé | Los Angeles, California

"So, how do you wanna celebrate?" I asked Akira as I laid on her bed. She hummed, "I told y'all, I don't really want to celebrate. I hate being the center of attention" she pouted. "But baba, this is big. It's your very first acting gig" I told her. She moved her head and laid it on my chest, "I know but, can we just do something low key? Like dinner or something with the family and Storm?" She asked me. "That was already gonna be the plan. Keep in mind, the public doesn't know about you. Yet." I told her.

It was the day after Akira's table read with her cast mates. We were all so proud of her because she went in thinking she wasn't going to get the role and turns out she already had it. She didn't go in with my help but actually with the strings Y/n pulled. She didn't want to audition with my name in her back pocket...she wanted to go about this legitimately which I respected. Sure Storm did put in a good word for her but she got the role all on her own.

"When do you think you will let the public know about me? That's if you want to" Akira asked. I hummed, "it's up to you baby. If you want to be a secret, then a secret you will be. But, if you want to be known, then I'll make an instagram post and introduce you to the Beyhive" I told her. She twisted her lips, "do they know about dad?" She asked me. I shook my head, "not with her having any ties to me but with her being seen with Nas on several occasions" I told her.

I didn't want to force her to come to the public. I knew how terrible they can be against me and with me. They even gave my damn five year old hell and she didn't even have a damn phone. I didn't need my teenage daughter being exposed to so much hate just for being my daughter.

"What if people don't believe you? Like saying you're lying that you actually had me?" She asked. I shrugged, "I don't give a damn if they don't believe me. I don't understand why they wouldn't—you stole my whole face babes" I chuckled and she giggled. "They'll probably get at me that I'm lying or something. It's a good thing my account is private" she told me and I chuckled, kissing her head.

It was just Akira and I here in the house. Blue was with my Mama and Y/n wanted go meet up with Beau since he was down here. I asked Akira if she wanted to go see Storm but she told me that the girl had an award show she needed to attend and that she didn't want to distract Storm.

"Mama, can I ask you a question?" Akira asked. "Of course" I told her. "I asked Dad this question yesterday and she got on my nerves because she kept on dodging it and she made me want to fight—" she paused, rolling her eyes. "But, what are you and dad? Like, she lives here when we know she has a whole house and y'all tried to be slick with y'all little kisses and being handsy discreetly around Blue and I but I be catching it and not saying nothing" she told me, sitting up.

I could feel my face heat up at her words. I honestly didn't think she noticed anything but we stopped trying to hide everything like last week so it was bound to happen.

"I mean, I feel like we are together now" I told her. "You don't sound so sure" she pouted at me. I playfully rolled my eyes, "she's damn near moved in and yes we have been more affectionate so yes we are together again" I told her and she made a high pitched noise before moving her whole body on top of mine.

"Yayy, finally" she said dramatically. I laughed but quickly smiled when she leaned down to give me an eskimo kiss. "I love you Mama" she told me. I smiled and wrapped her in my arms tight, "I love you too baba, don't forget that" I told her and she nodded.

"Now, tell me about you and Storm" I told her. Her face scrunched up and I could tell she was about to protest. "Don't even try it" I told her and she pouted, "I don't even know" she told me with a frustrated sigh. "What do you mean?" I asked her. "I know we have gotten more close—physically and our innocent flirting is becoming more prominent. I just don't know what to make of it. I'm too nervous to ask her" she told me.

Well, at least she knows she likes her and isn't putting it off. I don't know if I should tell her straight up or let her figure it out.

"Well, what do you want to ask her?" I asked. "I wanna do more than talk. Like, I'm tempted to kiss her but I keep chickening out" she pouted. I laughed and shook my head, "then do it Kira. The only one stopping you, is you" I told her. "Who made the first move with you and dad?" She asked me. "She did. We were in her car listening to music and she literally snatched me out my seat and onto her lap to kiss me" I told her, my mind sort of drifting back to the day I actually catered to her.

That night probably was how Akira came about but whatever.

"I don't want to mess it up though. What if I'm reading the signs all wrong and the flirting was just harmless to her and it meant nothing like I'm thinking" she told me. "Well, I don't know Storm as well as you do but between seeing her by your side at the hospital and even here, I can tell she cares for you tremendously. She looks like she would move mountains for you with how protective she is" I told her how I felt about it. "So...you think I should give it a go?" She asked me, looking at me with her big, hopeful eyes. "I think you should listen to your heart. However you wanna go about this you and Storm situation, go with how you feel" I told her.

I could see the gears turning in her head at my words. Her eyes squinted and her eyebrows furrowed in thought.

"I think imma go call her" she told me. I nodded and got up to leave the room so that she could get some privacy. I leaned over and kissed her head, "good luck" I told her and she nodded. "Thanks for the pep talk mom" she told me and I gave her a smile before leaving her room.

I left her room and walked down to my bedroom. I shut my door behind me and basically starfishes on my bed. My phone began ranging from under me and I slid my hand into my sweatpants pockets and I fished out my phone. I swiped, not even looking at the contact and put the phone up to my ear.

"Hello?" I asked. "Mama, you home?" I heard Y/n's voice. "Mhmm" I hummed, "why?" I asked. "Damn, I can't ask if my baby mama is in the house?" She asked sarcastically. I rolled my eyes, "what do you want Y/n?" I asked her plainly. I heard her suck her teeth, "loose the attitude" she told me, her voice deeper and huskier than before. I blew out a breath quietly as I sat up, wanting to ignore the throbbing at my core.

She ain't even nowhere near me and she still had the effect that made me want to fold and jump her bones.

"Where's Kira?" She asked me. "Talking to Storm" I told her. "You still with Beau?" I asked her. "Nah, that's actually what I was calling you about" she told me. I furrowed my eyebrows, "what's wrong with Beau?" I asked her. "Nothing, well, technically Beau doesn't have any involvement in this so I don't know why I said that but anyway—we found them" she told me. "Who?" I asked, having an idea of who them where but wanting to hear her say it.

"Kanye and Kim"

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