Underground - A Carmilla Fanfiction

Chapter Five ~ F**k Up the Friendship

Carmilla's POV

"LAURA WATCH OUT!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as I pulled her out of the way as three giant rocks came hurdling down from the ceiling, contributing to the earthquake that incited.

I hugged her tightly as we tripped over the back of the couch and landed on its cushions, in which I ended up on top of Laura.

I fiercely hugged her and after a few moments, the earthquake stopped.

Laura fixed her eyes on me, looking dumbfounded like a golden retriever puppy dog.

I got up off her and started to storm off, pacing in the other direction.

"Laura, this is exactly why I didn't want you to get involved! If you get hurt again, I swear I'll lose my mind!" I yelled.

She slowly got up, softening her eyes and expression.

She slowly walked over to me and put a hand on my cheek.

I looked into her eyes and she looked back at me. All I wanted to do was protect her. I would do anything for her if that means not seeing her die. I love her too much to see her die and knowing that she'll never live her life like she wanted to.

"You are just so frustrating! You're human. You have a life, and you don't understand how precious that is. You're able to breathe, have a heartbeat, and experience a life that's sweet but short. I've lived for so many years, and I've done all of that. More than that. I wish everything had gone down and had been experienced differently, but every single event in my centuries of being have led up to you, Laura Hollis. Out of all the people I've met and lured and loved, none of them compare to you. I may have loved before, but you? Pfft, compared to you, I basically hated them, because I love you. So much so that I can't even put it in words. And I know that love may just be one sided, but if it is, just let me make this one sided decision for you. Even if you don't feel the same." I confessed and let out a breath.

Oh shit...I just said all of that. Well, shit.

With wide eyes, I went on with my speech. "I am SO sorry. I understand if you don't—"

Suddenly, Laura grabbed my face and kissed me. I kissed back in response and grabbed her face.

God, I missed this. Her lips on mine...just absolutely an other worldly feeling.

We pulled back for air as we looked into each other's eyes and smiled.

"I love you, Carmilla. I always have." Laura confessed.

She loves me. She fucking loves me. I freaking win. This is the best day of my life.

"I'm sorry that I haven't said it sooner...I was scared, and felt that I wasn't good enough for you after everything that happened in the apartment, but I don't want you to think for a second of your life that I don't. I was a fucking idiot, and I'm so sorry. It's my fault your sister got killed, and on top of that I made you feel like shit. Like you needed to be more, but Carmilla, you're everything to me as you are. I love you for you, not some heroic vampire I fantasize you as," Laura ranted, "And I was scared to get back with you because your amount of experience is intimidating and I'm just the poster 'girl next door' who thought she wasn't enough to fit the 'relationship' criteria but here we are. A girl facing her first ex and girlfriend ever in her life, begging for forgiveness, and confessing her love, and wanting her back desperately and biblically."

I had no idea she felt that way about everything...

I put a hand on her cheek, lifting her chin up, and wiping away the tear that had sprouted out of her eye, falling onto her face. "Hey, hey. It's okay. I forgive you and I don't blame you for anything, okay? And I don't want you to blame yourself for it. I won't let you, Cupcake." I assured her. "If and when you're ready, I'll be here for you and take care of you, alright? Just like I have been recently. I personally didn't have the best first experience, given that Elle basically dumped and utterly humiliated me the day or so after it happened. Before you, I was so set on her. I thought I was going to run away and spend my life with her...I even got her a ring, even though it was historically impossible to marry in that time frame. I did absolutely everything for her...and she outed me. Outed me for the queer vampire I was. She broke my heart, and love and sex wasn't the same after that. I became an alcoholic and...this pains me to say and admit...but basically did the same thing she did so I could try and feel better about myself. Lure girls, hook up with them, go to the bar, hook up with people there, repeat. That's what I knew for too long, and it wasn't until I met JP that I was able to get out of the funk I was in and make the realization of what I was actually doing. And yes, I actually met JP when he was alive before he was whatever he is now in the late 1800s, early 1900s. He told me if I did what they did, I was just as bad as them, and said, 'Cope with the wonders of life. Not with its grievances.' And that's what I've been trying to live by, and when I met you, that's when I really knew I could honor his words. With someone I could enjoy it with. Someone I love to the core of my soul I would sacrifice my life for, and that's you, Laura. It always will be...that's if, persay, you do want to be my girlfriend again."

Laura smiled with those freaking puppy dog eyes. "Is that a trick question, Ms. Karnstein?"

"Hmm...I don't know, is it, Ms. Hollis?" I said slyly with a little nervousness in my voice.

She smirked and chuckled. "I would love to court you, Ms. Karnstein."

"You don't say!" I beamed as we both laughed, and I grabbed her waist as she wrapped her arms around my neck, and we kissed as passionately as we felt about each other.

"I love you." I said as we pulled back.

"I love you." Laura said with those loving eyes.