Laura's POV
I sat at my desk having a little tad bit of an existential crisis while Carmilla had her little vampire nap.
She's so cute when she sleeps...I'm so happy she won't be a vampire anymore.
I finally decided to pick up a piece of pen and paper and write my will and a goodbye. I think it's the least I can do, sadly.
"To all my loved ones,
In this letter I have disclosed my wishes along with my goodbyes...
Melanie —
Thank you for helping us out being our lookout pit correspondent. I will always remember all you've done for us, and always be thankful. I wish we could've gotten closer and could've had more time together.Kirsch —
Thank you for being my escort and protecting me as a "hottie" (dad...it's a long story, but long story short I'm still gay) and I'll always remember you as my number one loving, sweet, and kind hot male best friend. I'll always remember the first moment I met you and how we've grown as friends. I literally adore you and I'm going to miss you.JP —
You have been there for us since the beginning. Thank you for everything, and please keep an eye on Carmilla, I know she's going to lose a lot by losing me, and I don't want her getting into any trouble. I'll be watching over her from up here, but I can't really stop her from doing anything, so be my person on the ground. Again, thank you for everything and I'm so grateful to have you as my friend.Danny —
If you ever come around to being the Danny you used to be, I'd like to thank that Danny for being my right hand woman for so long. Also I don't know why I want to thank you for this, but thank you for being my first crush?! I honestly don't know anymore, haha. I hope you find the person you're looking for, and I hope you eventually stand up to Mother and become the Danny I know you can be. I love you so much.Perry —
If you ever stopped being possessed by Mother, I'd like to say thank you for being one of my closest friends. One of my best friends. Keep knocking the sense in to Lafontaine and keeping everyone down to Earth. Love you tons.Lafontaine —
God, where do I start. You are like a sibling to me and you've always looked out for me. You've always helped me, saved me, and went out for me no matter the situation. I will always be grateful to have had you in my life, and I hope you become a renowned scientist because you are so smart. Don't ever stop innovating. I admire and adore you so much, and I'll miss you so much.
P.S. - help JP keep an eye out on Carmilla for me, I'd appreciate it lots :)Dad —
I think you already know everything I want to say, but I will say this. Ever since I was a little girl you have been there for my every milestone and every step of the way, and that hasn't changed at all. Thank you for supporting me when I came out to you, I'm unconditionally grateful that you still support me and are in my life. For every bear mace and self protection tool you have given me, including those things we don't speak of that of which I absolutely didn't need even though you insisted. And for the record, this was my entirely my decision. I did make the decision for Carmilla to give her another chance at being a mortal, but this was entirely my decision. I was not influenced by anybody else to make it and this goes to everyone else reading this that it is not your fault. I'm looking at you, Carmilla. But, I love you so much, and I'll say hi to mom for you and take care of her. I promise. Also keep an eye on Carmilla as well as an adult authority, I guess, haha. Also I wish you could've walked me down the aisle at me and Carmilla's wedding, had I survived. I really do.Carmilla —
Carm. My Carm. There's so many things I could say here, but firstly this is not your fault. I will literally haunt you if you blame yourself. This was all my decision, okay, baby? Please, my wish is for you to live your life like you always wanted to. See everything in color. Breathe. Enjoy your heartbeat, and enjoy the 21st century with your bittersweet life. I wish I could've been there with you. I really wanted to walk down the aisle, and kiss you, as your bride. I wanted to have kids with you, and live to see their kids. I wanted you to have your dream of being a mom, and being my wife. I'm sorry it didn't work out. But once you're ready, find your someone else. Find someone you want to experience life with...I wish it could've been me, but I guess I lucked out. Keep on being brave and confident and standing up for yourself. Don't be afraid to be you. People love you for you. I love you for you. I love your body, soul, personality, and just everything about you. I'm so grateful for the experiences I've been able to have with you, the kisses, the sex, the love, the dates, and just everything. I'm so incredibly grateful to call you my fiancé and should have been future wife. I hope you find someone special to give that special, beautiful ring to, a ring whose beauty could never compare to yours. You are breathtakingly gorgeous, inside and out. I love you so much, and I'll keep loving you endlessly from up here and looking out for you. Please don't make any stupid decisions either, I'll have people watching you, Carmie.
P.S. — yes dad, we were safe just for your sake information and knowing. she took care of me. :)
also I'm sure Carm would've asked your permission to marry me, but we were kind of running out of air and time...ha...I leave everything to my dad and Carmilla, and they can decide what goes to who, if they don't keep it all. I love everyone and I'm eternally grateful.
Resting in peace with a clear conscience and love for all the people I knew,
LauraTears were coming down like waterfalls down my face as I put the letter into the envelope, sealing it and stamping it off with an old embroidered stamp.
On the back, I wrote: "Open at midnight tomorrow. From Laura To All My Friends and Family."
I dated it and put it in Carm's bag, and I continued sobbing as I sat on the edge of the couch next to Carm.
I tried to stop crying, but I just couldn't shake the thought I'd be losing everyone and everything tomorrow. My friends, my dad, the love of my life...it was just too much.
Carmilla yawned as her eyes fluttered open as I continued crying. She immediately noticed me and wrapped an arm around my shoulders and held my hand, rubbing her thumb on the inside of my hand to comfort me.
"What's going on, Cupcake?" She asked, her eyes filled with concern and love for me.
"I'm just...I just...it just really hit me that we're dying tomorrow and I won't ever see, kiss, or hold you ever again." I confessed.
"Shh..." She said as she pulled me in, causing me to lay down next to her in her arms, sobbing into her chest. "I'm right here in this moment forever. I will be in every moment until then. And I'll never stop loving you, okay, Laura? I'll always be here."
She kissed my head, holding me close and tightly. "I love you so much, Carmilla."
"I love you more than anything, Laura." She said holding me and not letting me go as we drifted off to sleep for the second to last time.
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