Underground - A Carmilla Fanfiction

Chapter Two ~ Longing to Call You Mine, Cupcake.

Carmilla's POV

Well, fuck.

Fuck, fuck, FUCK! What am I supposed to do?

Grunting, I went loudly down the stairs and ran my hands through my hair.

I paced back and forth, spiraling, before realizing I had to attend to Cup—I mean—Laura's wounds. I sped over to the closet to retrieve the first aid kit and sped back, kneeling down next to Laura.

I unlatched the first aid kit on the ground, and grabbed cotton balls and alcohol to tend to Laura's head wound. I applied the alcohol to the cotton balls mashed together, and lightly wiped and dabbed the wound without making it bleed more like other wounds usually do.

And they do.

I threw the cotton balls into the trash, and grabbed gauze and wrapping bandages to secure it around her head. I wrapped it round and round until I used my teeth to tear the end and tie it off. I put some cream on the bruises, but other than that there was not much I could do. I sped to put the kit away and sped to the bathroom to retrieve a warm wet towel to put on Laura's head and sped back to her and rested it along her forehead. I sped to get a warm blanket to cover her and keep her warm, and started to make hot tea for her to drink when she woke up, as well as soup. I sped back to her and kneeled beside her, keeping my hand on her cheek, rubbing my thumb lightly back and forth on her soft skin, admiring her beauty and complexion.

There was no maiden fair who ever could compare to her. Ever.

Oh, god...she's gonna die.

The realization hit me hard as I sat there with her, continuing to admire her.

Wait...am I going to die too?

The question and answer is complicated, every time I think about it, but I'm dead, just not physically. It's a complicated question to completely solve, but the answer is so much more vague of a "I don't know". Maybe I will, maybe I won't.

But if Laura does, I want to as well, no questions asked. Life will not be worth living if not for her.

But she's barely lived. 19 years old, and she's barely started college. Started her adult life. God, I would give my life so she could go live hers, but I don't have one, so that's lovely.

Maybe I should tell her...if she's going or we're going to die, I should tell her.

While in my run on daydream, Laura had started to open her eyes and mine immediately fixed on hers.

"Carmilla?" She said weakly.

"Hi, Cupcake." I smiled, not realizing what I said until after I said it.

"...sorry."

"It's okay...god, ouch, my head feels like someone hit it with a mallet..." She attempted to get up but I lightly pushed her back down and she gave me an intrigued but confused look.

"Don't worry, I'm not trying to try anything, Laura." I assured her. "You need to lie down and keep resting, okay?"

"Okay..." She agreed.

"What happened?"

I sighed. "So there's no easy way to explain this...but when Lafontaine stormed out apparently one of Mother's lackeys pocketed the Book of Lives and kind of...uhm...caved us in here."

Laura had the most shocked, flabbergasted expression on her face. "I'm sorry, what?!"

"We're kind of trapped in here...permanently and there's no way to get out..."

The words refused to come out and when they did they felt like poison in my mouth.

"We're going to die in here, Laura."

I sighed and squeezed her hand, looking into her eyes.

"No, no—there's gotta be a way we can..." Laura attempted to get up again.

I gently urged her down yet again.

"I wish there was. I tried, Laura. There's no way out."

Laura sat back defeated, with a mixed expression on her face.

She started laughing, choking up as she did. "19 years, aye? At least...at least I made it that far...at least...at least I..."

Laura started full out sobbing, crying into her hands.

I brought her in for a hug as she cried on my shoulder.

"Shh...I'm here. I'm here. Shh..." I ran my hands through her hair, rubbing the back of her head.

Laura continued crying for quite a while, and I was there the whole time, holding her, comforting her.

She sniffled, eventually at some point lifting her head up to look at me.

"Thank you, Carm." She gave a small appreciative smile with tear stains on her face.

"You're welcome, Cupcake." I winked and smiled at her.

She let out a small laugh, which made me smile.

"So...what now?" She left the question open ended.

"Well, I tried using my strength but it's no use. These rocks are weighted against everyone's physical capability, so we're stuck."

"What if we try contacting Lafontaine or JP or just...anyone?"

"We can certainly try, but I'm pretty sure the cave in is going to block out any signal from coming in or out." I told her.

She sighed.

I squeezed her hand. "Hey, it's gonna be okay, alright? We're here together, and I don't think I'd want to be stuck with any other person in the world."

Laura smiled.

"I know that it's gonna be a hard fate to accept, but I'm here for you, okay? You can talk to me about anything, and, hey, you're talking to a girl who experienced a fate like this years ago."

Laura quietly chuckled. "I think being murdered is just a tad bit worse than getting caved in with...someone..."

I looked at her, observing her expression and body language.

"...someone you know."

I looked down with a small smile. "Yeah."

I rubbed my thumb back and forth on her hand as we both looked down to observe my action.

We looked into each other's eyes, exploring them, trying to find their path. We both instinctively leaned in as if we were gonna kiss but then Laura shrugged me away with changing the subject.

"You made me tea?"

"And soup." I said with a witty smile.

"I'm flattered...you're very sweet, Carm...thank you."

"Of course." I gave her my longing loving eyes.

She grabbed the soup and started eating it as I stood up.

"I'm gonna...uh...check if the computer or any of the devices work."

"Thank you, Carm. I really appreciate you taking care of me and helping out."

"Of course, Cupcake." I winked and gave off an assuring smile.

With that statement, I so badly wanted to add on:
"I would do anything and everything in the world for you, Laura Hollis."

...but I didn't. Because I couldn't. Because she wasn't Cupcake to me anymore...she was just Laura.