Toriano Jackson Oneshots

you should still be here..

TW: school shooting, death, angst, thoughts of suicide.
I literally thought this up in the shower and started crying.))

"MARLEY!" I screamed, running towards her.

I never thought something like this would happen, not to me... Especially not to her.

The moment still replays in my head. Hearing the gunshot, her scream, watching her fall to the ground. It was horrifying, it was devastating.

And she wasn't even expecting it... She was smiling when she saw me.

"Oh my god, Marley.." I scooped her into my arms, tears threatening to fall from my eyes. I had to get her somewhere safe, somewhere we could hide. I pulled her into a corner of the library and just held her, whispering to her, and trying to convince her it was going to be okay.

She looked up at me, tears rolling down her face. "Toriano, I'm scared..." I sighed, holding her face with my now bloody hand. "It's gonna be okay."

In my heart, I knew it wasn't going to be okay. She had a gunshot through the abdomen and no one knew when we were gonna get help. I applied pressure to the wound with one hand and comforted her with the other.

I could feel her growing weaker as she sobbed in my arms. It took everything in me not to sob right then in there. I had to hold it together for Marley.

"I need you to stay with me Marley. We're supposed to get married, you're supposed to mother my children. We're supposed to be together forever.... You can't leave me!"

My voice started breaking and my tears started falling as she sobbed in my arms.

"I'm so scared... I don't wanna go!" She held onto my shirt tighter than she ever had before. I never thought I'd be covered in Marley's blood, I never thought I'd lose her.

My chest was tight as we held onto each other, hearing more gunshots in the distance. Marley looked up at me, shaking her head.

"I'm not gonna make it, Tito." She whispered faintly. I watched tears continue to pour from her eyes. "Oh god, please don't say that, Marley. You have to make it. We're supposed to be together forever..." This is when I started breaking down, holding her tighter, rocking her back and forth. "You can't leave me! You're my soulmate Marley, please.." she sniffed and held my face. "I love you Tito.. and if I have to die, at least I'll go knowing how much you love me. I want you to live your life to the fullest..." She whispered, wiping my tears.

I shook my head and kissed her gently. "You can't leave me.." she smiled softly, rubbing circles on my cheek with her thumb. "Promise me you'll move on. I want you to thrive in life, even if it's not with me.." I shook my head again, my tears dropping into her face. "I can't promise you that... Marley, I love you! Please, you can't leave me!"

I sat there, begging her to stay through my tears.

"I love you, Toriano." I kissed her cheek and sighed "I love you too, Marley. But this can't be the last time I get to tell you this.." she was growing weaker, I could feel her loosing her strength, her body going more limp in my arms. "You have to hold on, this can't be the last time I hear you say I love you!" I begged and cried. Marley stared up at me smiling "I love you so much Toriano, I'm so sorry. I don't want to leave you..." I looked back down at her, wiping her tears. "It's not your fault, my love." I held her hand and softly sang one of her favorite songs.

"Watch the sunrise along the coast as we're both getting old..." I could barely get my words out through my tears

"I can't describe what I'm feeling. All I know is we're going home so, please don't let me go. Don't let me go.." She was getting weaker, I could see the life leaving her eyes.