"I know this place like the back of my hand. There's no need to worry so much. You'll get used to it eventually and then it won't be as scary." Some followed through on all the basics that I was nearly 100% sure that had Dohee said the same things to me.
But it gave me a better understanding.
I was completely captivated. Every word she spoke was true, and her confidence was palpable. Somi embodied positivity and enthusiasm. My initial expectations of this place were low; I had anticipated encountering gloomy and bitter individuals. However, it seems that my assumptions were extremely wrong.
It felt overwhelming being in such a place when I was nothing compared to the workers.
It took me years of school to be able to work in a place like this and now I feel like I'm an outcast to everyone.
Everyone was so formal and welcoming, meanwhile, I was awkward and nervous. I have absolutely no professional etiquette whatsoever. I'm surprised I even landed a workplace like this so quickly.
Somi: You look nervous. It's okay, we are very welcoming.
Y/N: I'm sorry, I'm just not used to this place yet. I'll get used to it soon.
I brushed it off and she smiled reluctantly as she sat at her respective desk and I stayed seated at my own. My heart was palpitating and I felt more anxious than ever, but a part of me was certain that this was going to go well and as expected.
I shook my head of any unwanted thoughts and took two deep breaths in and out. I instantly felt better and more relieved than before. I just want to do my job and not get fired on the first day.
I need to make sure all my hard work pays off in the end and doesn't go to waste.
My desk was empty and it was a dark brown colour with a computer screen on it. I could tell it needed a bit of decoration and design to it. I don't think I'd be able to work on a desk that has absolutely no emotion to it.
Apart from me was grateful and the other was sceptical. No way everyone in this place was kind and respectful just like Somi. I just didn't seem to believe it. I was going to experience some hatred in this place and that's just what happens.
Out of nowhere, a stabbing pain made its way onto my head and I winced in pain. It felt like the same pain as earlier. I didn't have a good feeling about this so I ran into the direction of the bathroom.
People were staring at me, but I didn't focus on them at that moment. The excruciating pain was so bad that it felt like I was going to faint at any given moment. Ever since this morning it has been doing it and I have no idea why it's suddenly being like this, just when my life started getting better, these things happened.
Why do I always have to make a mess and ruin everything? Everything was going so well until this moment. The events leading up to this ruined it all. Now they're going to think I'm weird or something.
That didn't matter. I would get more stares if I just collapsed on the spot in front of everyone. Then I would be the laughing stock and prone to judgement. Just act normal. Everything will be okay in the end. I need to have professionalism in this environment.
I ran into the bathroom and held my hands on the corners of the sink. I breathed heavily in and out until the pain soothed a little. Just enough for me to regain composure and quickly look at myself in the mirror. I looked like a total mess. Before, my hair was neat and tidy. Now it's messy.
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Forever Now | M.YG
Fanfiction"Nothing was the same ever since she passed. But you, you brought the hope and excitement back into my life when I needed it the most." Ever since the passing of her best friend, Y/N was hopeful to change the future and finally move on. When Jeon Y...
