Thai BL- One Shots

I wanna be yours

Gemini knew Fourth was out of his league. Fourth was this beautiful flirtatious human being that everyone was attracted to, but he couldn't stop falling for him. Fourth was his shippartner and best friend. He loved him so much, but he knew he could never have him.

He watched as Fourth was doted upon by both men and women. He watched and suffered in silence as the love of his life gave sensual looks to others, watched as the love of his love flirted with others. He watched and suffered, holding on to this unrequited love.

He was fine with it. He really was, but Fourth sometimes made it hard for him. When Fourth would flirt with him, when Fourth would curl up and snuggle with him. Fourth would give him kisses, hugs, and give him all kinds of affection. However, Gemini knew none of it was real. It was all fan-service.

Fourth would joke about how Gemini liked him, how deep down Gemini wanted to be his boyfriend. If only he knew how true his jokes were, but Gemini was determined to keep his feelings a secret.

"Conceal. Don't feel. Don't let it show." He would chant these words to himself like a mantra.

He would often dismiss Fourth's flirtatious remarks. He would try to reel in the longing looks, but he wasn't doing so well in that department when their fans would always capture him looking at Fourth like the boy hung the moon and stars.

Fourth was like the sun, and everyone was drawn to him. Everyone loved him. A flame, people were drawn to him like moths. A vixen.

Gemini didn't know what compelled him to ask Fourth this question during an interview they were giving with Praew magazine, but before his brain could catch up, he had already spoken.

"Do you love me?"

He saw an emotion he couldn't decipher flash across Fourth's face before it morphed into a soft smile.

"I do. I love you." Fourth answered.

"Really? You love me?" Gemini asked in a tone softer than he intended.

"Of course I do. I love you." Fourth's tone was soft, and his face was just as soft.

Before Gemini could become hopeful, he saw Fourth's face shift from the soft, vulnerable expression to the one he made when he teased him before he asked.

"I have a question for you. Do you want to be my boyfriend?"

Gemini was reminded that they were not alone and in front of a camera when the staff started cooing and giggling. He forced a laugh like he always did despite his true feelings.

"What are you talking about!"

And just like that, his heart was shattered into pieces again. It was nothing new, really. It was his fault. It was his fault for having feelings for his best friend. It was his fault for aiming for someone as unreachable as Fourth.

Another time he slipped was when he was doing a live with P'Neo. To be fair, he had a glass or two of wine at an event he attended before the live, so he wasn't in the right state of mind.

"If you were to have a boyfriend, who would it be?" P'Neo asked.

"If I were to have a boyfriend. My boyfriend would be... Fourth."

As expected, the studio erupted in "awwws" and giggles.

"What! Crazy!" Gemini said to make light of the situation.

As Gemini went to bed that night, he avoided social media, knowing very well that shipping videos of him and Fourth were trending all over. He couldn't do that to his heart. He couldn't allow his delusions to take over. Luckily for him, he didn't have a schedule the next day. On the one hand, it sucked because it meant he won't be seeing Fourth. On the other hand, at least he wouldn't be forced to lie about his true feelings for his best friend.