Y/N POV:
I couldn't sleep.
Not after what happened with Joel and neither could Ellie
We simply sat staring out the window in silence not knowing what to say..
The weight of the almost kiss looming over us.
Ellie means so much to me and I would never want to jeopardize our friendship...so why is it that I yearn for more?
I glanced over at her watching how the moonlight cast over her face, 'God she is beautiful'
I thought as my lips quirked up into a smile
"Whatcha staring at?"
Ellie asked, breaking my trance
"Uh- um...Sorry"
I apologised,
turning away from her in embarrassment, feeling my face begin to heat up
"No no, it's okay.."
Ellie assured me,
tucking a strand of hair behind her ear
The awkward tension in the air increasing...
"Can we talk about what happened earlier?"
I blurted out
"A few things have happened today.. You're going to have to be more specific."
"Right..Um, you know how we were arguing about the shower-"
"Oh, that."
Ellie cut me off, looking down at her hands her cheeks turning a light pink
"Yea..."
"(Y/N) I'm really fucking sorry I overstepped and I shouldn't-"
Before Ellie could finish her sentence my lips were already on hers, and to my surprise she kissed back, placing her hand on the back of my neck and deepening the embrace, until we had to break for air
"Oh.." Ellie smiled,
inches away from my lips
"I wanted to kiss you before..But I wasn't sure...do you.. Like me?" I asked,
stumbling over my words in a flustered manner,
"Fuck yeah"
Ellie laughed,
wrapping her arms around me
"I suck at this"
I giggled, leaning into her embrace
"Yeah you do"
"Hey!"
I exclaimed,
shoving Ellie playfully
"Okay.. we both equally suck at this, is that better?"
she chuckled,
Kissing me on the forehead
"Mmhmm"
I hummed,
as I lowered my head into her lap
...
"I'm scared."
Ellie confessed,
as she stroked my hair gently,
staring out at the moonlit sky
"I still can't believe Joel's gonna leave us just like that...
especially after everything we've been through..."
"Yeah..." I sighed,
as my eyelids grew heavy yearning for sleep
Ellie POV:
I looked down to see (Y/N) had fallen asleep, I smiled down at her peaceful face
"Sweet dreams"
I whispered, carefully lifting her up into my arms, moving her over to the bed and placing her down gently
Before returning to my seat on the windowsill, remembering the look on Joel's face when I had brought up his daughter...
an overwhelming feeling of regret washed over me...
I've lost Joel and it's all my fucking fault I thought
my lip quivering in sorrow
I brought my right hand up to my face upon feeling something roll down my cheek
a single tear.
