Chosen By Desire? (Cha Hyun-su x reader) ON HOLD

(Long) Chapter 6.2: Chaos

Bold is talking Italics is thinking/monster talking Underline is flashback/previous chapter Anything inside ~ and bolded is author 

~Yes I drew that and remember, Sorrow is the one on the right~

~Sorry for the long wait. Lots of things happened and I lost motivation, I have some so here's a chapter. This one is long so sit back and relax. Reason for the redraw is to help differentiate who is who~

*Previously* 

I set Min-suk down and he went to Hyun-su, wanting to make sure he was okay. I softly smiled at him and sat down. I laid my head on Hyun-su's lap and looked up at him. I took one of his hands after he didn't look at me and played with them. I was starting to overthink, thinking I did something wrong. I turned onto my side and placed his hand over my waist. I closed my eyes and before I could fall asleep, the lights went out, signaling, we had finally lost power.

*Present* 

I sighed softly, glad I could sleep without light in my eyes for once. I soon fall asleep, not knowing that I'd have to face one of the girls.

*In the monster realm thing. You're facing your inner demon person*

I open my eyes and saw that I was alone. I sat up and looked around more. I looked to my left and saw Sorrow. "What are you?" I asked her as she walked up to me. "I don't know" she told me. This caught me off guard. "What?" I asked confused. "You can start over here. You can live however you want" she told me. I softly sighed. "But if I reveal my desire, I become a monster?" I asked her. 

"Yeah. So, tell me what you really want" She asked as she held up a finger. She had an evil grin on her face as she said this. She lowered her finger and held the evil grin. "Fuck you" I said as I stood up. I then tried to stab her, only for it to be glass, with my spear that appeared out of nowhere. I held down the taser button ads I glared into her eyes. "Fine. Good luck then" she told me. 

*Back to reality*

I then woke up and Hyun-su was asleep next to me. "Are you up now?" A voice spoke out. I looked around and saw Eun-yu sitting nearby reading a book. "I knew you were a pushover" she said as she kept reading. I slowly sat up and looked at her. "Being a doormat is apparently in y'all's blood" she said as she set her book down and looked over at me. 

I kept my gaze down as I didn't want to lose control on her, but she was pushing it. "I was wondering Y/n" she said as she pulled the flashlight off the wall and pointed it to my arm. "Who did that to you" She asked. I then looked at my arm and saw the scars that I gave to myself. "I did" I said softly. "I mean.... who made you do that to yourself?" She asked. 

I sighed. "This world. I wasn't stable until I got into the police force. I was excited to start my first day, only to find out that the world has gone to shit and here we are. I became unstable again and that night in the apartment, when I was with a few others when we had gone to get Du-sik, I excused, myself to the bathroom and did it again, that's why these seem fresher" I softly explained and pointed at the ones that were scabbed over. 

She sighed. "What about him?" She asked, motioning to Hyun-su, who was still resting. "I won't tell you" I said softly, gently moving some of his hair out of his face. "I'm his girlfriend, I have to keep him safe" I said softly, not looking at her. She then shone the light in my face. "It's not your job to protect him, moron." She said as she stood up. "Does it make you feel better to think that way?" She asked me. "That's why everyone blames you" She added. I looked down and clenched my hand into a fist. I really wanted my life to be normal. "You have to throw a fucking huge fit, so that we'll get y'all" she told me. I honestly didn't care in the moment.