Time after time

Eyes closed

Noah POV

- I know it's not a good idea to stop you from going to Boston. But if you decide to go... It won't be with me.

Then I saw her, crying, running down that hill. It took all the control I had from me so I wouldn't run after her. I collapsed at the foot of the letter L and cried. I felt like I was taking a part of myself away. And when I opened my eyes, I saw him... Marco!? But what is he doing here? It shouldn't be there! He looked at me with the same look he had at the football stadium on Thanksgiving when he told me I had a problem. But this time, he told me:

- You're a fool, Noah Flynn! And this time, she is mine!

I woke up with a start and in sweat! It took me a few minutes to remember where I was... in my bed at my parents' house. I managed to separate what was a nightmare from what is reality. In fact, I have the impression that everything is a nightmare!

The day before yesterday, I did the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, let go of the love of my life. I spent my night watching this scene play out in my head until sleep took me, and then it was the nightmares each time bringing one more drama. The first time, it was Lee laughing at me and then Tuppen saying Evans would now make a nice catch. It was the first time that Marco had come to get involved in all this, adding to this nightmare because it had slashed my most precious dreams. Letting her go to do what she wants implies that she is now available for someone else and that's the part I have the hardest time accepting. I wanted to go to Boston with her! I wanted to live with her! I wanted to propose to her soon and marry her! The reality is that I may not have any of these things... never!

I've finally accepted that I probably won't have a peaceful sleep tonight. It was still early in the morning so I went out onto my balcony to watch the night slowly turning into day. I hoped that in my heart too, the sun would eventually reappear... But for the moment, I felt like I was in the dark.

A few hours later, I was sitting at the table for lunch with my parents. Chloe had texted me telling me that she was leaving the beach house to go back to her dad's boat and that she wanted to see me before she left. We were all eating in silence when Lee came downstairs visibly annoyed:

- Hi Lee, how are you?" my mother asked.

- Not good! " Lee replied with a murderous look in my direction.

- What's going on this time?" my father asked.

- It's not enough that my girlfriend decided to break up with me after Mr. Playeur decided to dump my best friend.

I could only roll my eyes at Lee's comment while keeping my eyes on my plate. Of course, it's my fault that Rachel broke up with him. But I was so unprepared for what he said afterward:

- But now that my best friend is free to come to Berkeley with me, she's decided to go to Harvard anyway.

- What! Elle always comes to Harvard! " I said incredulously.

I stood up on my 2 feet as if equipped with springs. I never thought Harvard was always a choice for Elle! Lee looked at me with a disgusted look before saying:

- And what difference does it make because anyway, if she goes, it's without you!

Of course, Elle had told Lee what I had told her. Probably to make my brother understand that she always goes for herself and not for me.

- I know that Elle saw Dr. Smith again who was caring for her mother in the hospital. At first, when Joni was ill, Elle had asked Dr. Smith for a stethoscope to heal all the little girls' moms. Dr Smith had told Joni that Elle would make an excellent doctor," my mother said with a wistful face.