Broken (Thalico)

Untitled Part 17

Hey guys, sorry that this is another late night update but I was having some problems with both my laptop and my.... personal issues..... so I couldn't even start this till today and unfortunately today was a super busy day for me. :/ Frankly I'm surprised I got It up at all.

  Hey, did any of you guys realize the chapter title is song lyrics? Any All Time Low fans out there?!?! Its from the song Come One, Come All which you can find up a the top (or over at the side for those of you who haven't updated) I highly recommend listening to it!

  Anyways, someone said that this story was dragging on to long and that I needed to hurry up and do something. They said that I just kept slowly making Nico worse and worse and that if I was going to do that it needed to happen quicker. So, I don't mean to call that person out but I felt this was something I should explain to all of you because you might be having similar thoughts.

  So listen, I'm trying to keep his story as realistic as possible, and guess what? You don't suddenly wake up one day with 101 things wring with you, you go on a down wards spiral. That is what I'm trying to create and I hope m not boring all of you by trying to do so. I promise I've got a lot planned for tis story and I pray you don't lose interest I this. Sorry if I'm boring you, and I apologize for not putting lot of Thalico in yet bus for right now I'm focusing more so on the depression aspect o the story instead of the romance. Its coming though!

  Ok I just thought that be good to share, enjoy :)

Ring ring ring ring

  Nico gave an aggravated grunt, and squeezing his eyes shut he threw his arm to the side, blindly trying to feel for the button that would make the alarm clock shut up. When he final found it, he relaxed into the comfort of his welcoming bed, god he did not want to go back to school.

  Nico pulled the covers up over his head, trying to shield himself from the light coming through his window. Why did he have to get up? He didn't want to, he didn't want to do anything, he simply wanted to sink into the bed and die. Nico wanted it to be over, he wanted to get out of it all and if he had to cheat a little bit than damn anyone who gets in his way of doing that. But at the same time Nico knew that he had already missed to many days of school and if he missed more he would be in serious trouble, not to mention he really needed to pass high school.

  But why? Why do you need to pass? Its not as if  you'll be around long enough to get a career. Your stupid and worthless anyway, so why do you even try?  the voice taunted, and Nico couldn't help but feel that it was right.

  But what if he does, what if he survives this hell and can actually have a normal life? He knew that was wishful thinking but it lingered in his mind anyway, what if I make it?  I need this.

  No, your worthless and a fuck up, you will never make it your to weak! No on ewould even notice your gone, no I take it back, they would notice but they wouldn't care. They would be overjoyed that your gone!

  Nico bit down on his lip, squeezing his eyes shut and covering his ears, he didn't want to hear this, no, his needed to stop.

  worthless fuck up. Waist of space, you'll never be good enough.

  "no" he muttered, shaking his head slightly, he didn't want to hear this. He didn't want to listen to this again.

  hated, forgotten, baggage.

  "No please." he said a bit louder this time, "Please stop."

   unloved.

  Nico wasn't sure what it was about that one word, but it did something to him, those two syllables where all it took for him to break down. He pushed his hands hard against his ears as he started to shake, the tears that had been welling up in his eyes started to fall. Sobs raked his body as he screamed "Stop it! Shut up! shut up shut up shut up!! please stop! " he cried, pulling himself into a ball and completely losing it.