Fairy Tail Academy

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I am literally writing this at almost one on the morning. I bet this shows how much I love you, right? I love you more than sleep.

~ThatWeirdoGirl

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Before I even processed it, the week was done and over, leaving only a week for Levy and I to admit our feelings. Levy had planned out an extravagant thing for tonight. Gajeel and her were going to hang out, which was really dinner and a movie, classic first date thing.

She planned to tell him during the dinner, which she had wanted to go to Fairy Tail, but Mira would be there, and no feelings would ever be revealed if Mira was trying to play match maker like she usually does. That always lead to problems.

She apparently had ship names for everyone here. Gajeel and Levy was Gajevy. Gray and Juvia had something like Gruvia. Heck, even Erza was shipped with someone, but I don't think I know this person. His name started with a J though.

Of course, Natsu and I weren't left out of this. Our ship name was NaLu. She said something before how NaLI was her OTP until she saw Natsu and I with each other, and then Levy had to tell her our deal, which made the enforcement ten time worse.

I still had no idea how I was going to tell Natsu. It was honestly a really scary thing to think about. If I had it my way, I wouldn't tell him at all and just let me live with my feelings pent up like this. I could do that, but noooo... I just had to admit to Levy and make a deal with her. Gah, my life would be some much easier if I had just shut up around her.

Maybe I could have told Juvia or Erza. They wouldn't have made a deal with me to tell the boy I like that I, indeed, do have feelings for him.

But I also was the one who agreed to this. I shook her hand and agreed to the terms and conditions. But who ever reads those anymore? I sure as hell don't. Maybe I can get out of this by saying I didn't agree! Sure, it would look like a pathetic excuse to get out of this, but at least it might give me a chance to leave it.

And then Levy would hate me forever.

I have to man up and do this. I can't loose Levy as a friend, but I can't loose Natsu either.

Maybe I should just get over my feelings for him. Find another man and get over him. But where am I going to find another man like Natsu. He is literally the best thing that has ever happened to me. Is this what they call love?

No! It's too early for that! I can't love him yet! I would look really desperate. We have only known each other for almost to weeks now. I still think it's too early to admit that I even like him! But that may just be me too.

The reason I ran away was to get away from my father, who was going to marry me off so he could get rid of me and make money out of it. I didn't want to be rushed into a love that I didn't want. I do really like Natsu, but I don't want to rush into anything. I want to fully feel the effects of falling in love.

I sit on my bed, trying to concentrate on the homework in front of me, but I couldn't. Was everything I've been feeling the past two weeks me falling in love? The way his smile sent me into a whirlwind, the way my heart flutters when I heard his laugh, and the fuzzy feeling I get whenever we hug?

Why did love have to be a difficult thing to understand! I wish I had Mom here to help me. I would probably spend all night talking to her about this. She wasn't forced into a marriage with my father. What they had was true love. That's why I don't blame Dad when he went crazy when she died, but I do blame him for what he did to me afterwards.

I felt a tear fall down my cheek. The main reason why I always wore pants was because of the scars I had there. He made sure to beat and cut my in places that could be covered easily, But that meant during the hot, sticky, days, I was stuck wearing pants. I didn't want no one to see the scars.

Before I could even think about the next thing on my brain, the door had busted open, showing a panting Levy. Gajeel was behind her, a crazy look in his eyes.

"Lucy!" She exclaimed. I tossed my homework from off my lap and hopped off of the bed. "There is a man here! He has the police and he says he's not leaving without you!" She shouted, borderline on hysterical. My first thought was my father. Did he really take the time to track me down and come all the way to Mongolia? I hugged the small bluenette, attempting to calm her down.

Gajeel was the next to speak. "I know that guy. He hired us two years ago to look for his missing daughter." My eyes widened. Yes, two years ago I had ran away and managed to get all the way to Clover. I didn't think he would hire an entire school to look for me.

I let go of Levy and took off out of the room. I had to see him. I had to tell him to stay out of my life for good.