If You Only Knew...

Chapter 13

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Naina's POV:

My weekend was filled with me sitting at my desk, writing notes and completing the numerous number of assignments that were given to me. With the occasional trips to the cafe, or late night walks around campus to get some air, I was pretty much indoors the past two days.

It was Monday lunch and I had already completed all my lectures for the day. It's crazy how fast everything has been going. A month and a half into uni and I'm already sick of all the work. But then again, what else should I expect.

I sighed to myself. I hate just sitting and doing nothing here by myself. You know what, I'm going to go for a run. Something that I don't do on a regular basis but enough times to know what I'm doing. I changed from my casual clothes into a pair of black, three quarter fitness leggings with a pin gym singlet and pink and black nike shoes. I grabbed my phone plus my earphones and made my way out.

I walked to the park that was a block down from the campus. Once I got there I started jogging. It had been a while since I had last done this and let's just say, it felt good. I felt so free. I ran around the park a several times, stopping every few laps to take in the view. By them I had finished my run, it was 4pm. I should probably start heading back.

I decided to walk back to the campus instead of jog. The main way from the campus to the park and vice versa, is filled with a journey along some of the nicest (and most expensive) shops. I strolled through the street, taking my time in just observing each and every store. There were a couple of uni students here and there but not too many, mostly just the general public.

I heard a muffled shout but didn't make anything of it. My earphones were still in and although I was aware of my surroundings, I decided to ignore the muffled screaming.

I felt a hand on my shoulder, forcefully trying to turn me around.

"Hey!! What the hell are you -Abhi.........Aman....?" My emotions went from fear to a mix of sadness and shock. Right before me, stood Abhi and Aman. I stood there speechless. I had spent the last week trying to avoid them because I didn't want to see them and now here they are. What should I do? I suddenly felt ten times more vulnerable than before. Everything that had previously happened with them came flooding back into my mind. The fight, getting hurt, the pain of everything, the endless amount of calls.

"Naina....we've been trying to contact you for ages. Please, you need to listen to us." Abhi pleaded with the utmost desperation. I could see his eyes start to fill with sadness. I started to walk backwards whilst slowly shaking my head. I could barely form sentences in my head.

"I...I...I have to go." I turned back around, and started to fasten my pace. I needed to get away from them. I can't talk to them right now. It's just too much.

"Naina! Wait!" I could hear Aman call my name. I felt a hand grab my wrist and turn me around.

"Please....just listen to us." There was so much desperation in Aman's voice that I felt a pang of guilt for resisting for so long. And it wasn't just in Aman's voice, I could hear it in Abhi's as well. I never thought about it from their perspective. I mean, I have always thought about how stupid it was and how it affected me, but I never thought about why they did it. Maybe I should listen to them.

"Ok fine...I'll listen." I sighed to both them and myself.

"Ummm..ok..well, what Aman and I wanted to say is that we're sorry. For everything. We didn't mean to cause you any trouble or harm or anything." Abhi scratched the back of his head in the most sincerest way possible.

"Look Abhi, I understand that you're sorry but that still doesn't mean that what you did was necessary. I'm here to listen so please, for both of our sakes, give me something worth listening to." I sighed one more time.

Abhi's POV:

"Fine, here it goes. The reason I went off like that was because I was worried. I am protective of you and I never knew that until that day. I don't want you to get hurt, you mean too much to me. And I know that you don't like me being so overprotective and stuff but I can't help it. You're like my little sister and you've been through so much that I would hate that you got hurt. And then, when I realised that Aman was the guy you were talking about, I just lost it. I know it isn't a solid reason but I was worried and that was why everything happened. It just kind of snowballed into rage and I hate myself so much for doing that. When I accidentally shoved you, you don't understand how much guilt I felt from doing that. I regretted that the moment I realised I had done that. I never wanted you to get hurt and in my rage, I was the one that hurt you. I have already apologised to Aman and now it's definitely time for me to apologise to you." I poured out everything I wanted to say to her, not even thinking about whether I made sense or not. "I will never get over what happened. I feel so horrible, you have no idea. Please, I'm begging you, forgive me. I miss hanging out with you. I miss talking to you. I miss just being with you. I need you more than you need me. Please. I am so sorry."

Naina stayed silent for a couple minutes. she seemed to be taking everything in. Then she turned her head towards Aman.

"What about you? What do you have to say?" Naina looked at Aman. I turned towards Aman giving him a look which basically said 'it's now or never mate'. He nodded at me, acknowledging what I had tried to tell him.

"I'm really sorry too Naina. When Abhi started getting angry, it triggered something in me as well...something I couldn't control. I should have thought about it but I didn't and I'm really sorry. I had a great time with you before and I would hate for that to be the only time I get to be with you. Look, I really like you Naina and I just got a bit protective of you. Please forgive me and give me another chance. I promise you that I won't let you down." Aman stepped towards Naina, taking her hand. I admit that I still do not like the two of them dating or whatever they are, but rather Aman than anyone else.

Naina POV:

Aman took my hand, looking at me, his eyes almost begging me to forgive him. This was all too much to handle. I know I wanted a reason but I honestly wasn't expecting this much emotion. I slowly slid my hand out of Aman's and started walking backwards. Everything was still processing anI was starting to feel uncomfortable. I feel so guilty for doing this but I could not answer them. It's so overwhelming.

"I-I'm sorry....I-I have to go..." I stuttered while shaking my head. I could feel my eyes start to fill with tears. Why am I crying? I shouldn't be crying. I can't help this. They can't see me cry. I don't want them to think that I'm crying. I am strong, I know what to do but I couldn't handle this.

And then I ran. I could hear them shouting, trying to stop me.

"Naina! Wait, Stop! Please don't run away." Aman shouted after me.

"Leave her Aman, she needs to think about this...she is probably overwhelmed." I faintly heard Abhi say to him.

I ran so fast that I was out of breath by the time I got back to campus. I feel so conflicted. I feel like there is no reason not to forgive them but I am so overwhelmed from what just happened that I couldn't answer them, even if I tried.

I got into bed and quickly drifted off to sleep. I will give them my answer tomorrow morning, no matter what.

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