Matteos Home For Boys (Poly)

Chapter 7

It's been about a week since we had the movie day and honestly I really like it here.

I've grown close to these guys already I honestly feel like I've known them forever.

So far I've learned that

-finn loves to read (especially romance)
-Matteo loves tattoos and all of his have meaning
-Kayden loves criminal minds
-Jace love jewellery (especially silver)
-Aiden loves animals
-Xavier loves physical touch

However there's sadly a downside of being here

The downside is I'm starting to miss home. Call me homesick if you will.

I'm missing my daily comforts like my own room that I grew up in and my dog named lady (she's a golden retriever and the only best friend I've ever had).

See I've never really been one to make friends and when I do they always leave. I've gotten so used to it that it doesn't hurt anymore. I honestly think they get bored of me because I refuse to do things that they think are 'cool'. Like smocking behind school or drinking till five in the morning.

My type of cool is discussing music and all the different types of genres (also making playlists like it's my professional job). Talking about movies and books. Some would call me a 'nerd' but honestly I don't care. If that's what I am so be it.

Anyways I think with me missing home it's starting to bring back this feeling that I hate. The feeling of I don't want- no. I can't get out of my bed. I literally don't have the energy to even brush my teeth (gross I know but it's the truth). Eating will go out the window because again I don't want to leave my bed or I eat out of comfort. No in-between.

I really didn't want my depression to hit me this early while staying here but oh well I can't help it and if I could my depression would of been cured years ago.

And what I hate is the fact that literally yesterday I was so happy and then all of a sudden today I wake to the feeling of sadness hitting me like a ton of bricks. Everyone will be confused and probably wonder why I'm sad when I have no reason to be.

Oh and another thing. My parents aren't answering my messages. On the way here my mum told me she wouldn't message me for a couple days so I could get used to it here. Which I think is fucking stupid. It makes no sense. But it's been over a week and still neither of them have answered any of my messages which is also making me feel like shit.

Hearing the creak of the bedroom door I look up to see matteo walking towards me with a concerned look on his face.

"It's almost 2 in the afternoon arlo. Are you feeling okay? I can ask xavier to make you some tea if you want"

I send him the biggest smile I could muster which was probably the smallest smile I've had all week. "No I'm fine thanks. I just kinda want to lay here if that's okay?"

Matteo just looks at me for a couple seconds and then nods "do you mind if I join you then?"

That sends a wave of suprise through my body not expecting that answer. Seems like my body made up its mind before my brain did because I'm already nodding and moving to the edge of the bed so he has space.

He pulls pack the blanket and slides onto the bed next to me. He holds out his arms "come. You look like you need a hug"

I really really do

So I basically roll into his arms and as soon as he holds me I burst out crying.

"I've got you arlo. Tell me what's wrong there might be something I can do."

I shake my head "there's nothing you can do. My parents don't... they don't want to talk to me and I just miss my home,my room,my comforts." I gasp trying to catch my breath

"I'm so sorry. I know you've been trying hardest to make me feel like I'm home. I'm so sorry"

He pulls pack and hold my face with both of his hands "Hey don't apologise, you have nothing to be sorry for"

He sends me a smile that made my knees weaker than they already are.

(I've  been crying people)

"Everyone here has been homesick, some still do get homesick arlo. It's normal I promise and as for your parents I will contact them and see what the problem is yeah?"

I nod "yeah thank you" he let's go of my face and I move straight back into his chest holding onto him as tight as I can.

We must've been cuddling for a while before I heard finn speak.

"Is everything okay? Arlo whats wrong"

I leave matteos arms and automatically miss the warmth that they bring. "He feeling a little homesick"

"Oh that's the worst. I honestly hate when that happens but you will feel better soon I promise"

I smile at home in thanks " how about we watch a movie? I can get my laptop from my bed and take your mind off things. That usually works for me."

His eyes look hopeful and I can't help but love the the way he's looking at me. Like he wants to spend time with me,like he want to make sure I'm happy and okay.

No one has cared for me like they do, and I've known them for about a week.

"Yeah that sounds nice" he smiles brightly

I feel matteo start to sit up and I look at him with a frown "Why don't you steal my spot finn, I'm going to contact your parents okay arlo?"

"Thank you so much matteo" he nods "of course arlo"

Once he gets up finn practically jumps in matteos old spot. He opens the laptop and puts netflix on.

"Okay so I'm thinking pitch perfect"

"I'm down for that it's actually one of my favourites" I swear the look in his eyes is triumph?

"Uhm could I lay my head on your shoulder? It's okay if you-"

"Yeah of course" he interrupts me mid sentence and holds his arm out. But I'm not complaining because I lay on his shoulder straight away.

About 10 minutes into the movie finn started to rub my arm with his thumb and I start to feel my eyes close and then I'm out like a light.

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Authors note!

Hey my beautiful people I hoped you liked this chapter. I'm not gonna lie but I struggled with this one😭