Untouched Draco x reader

Love is hard.

"I can't Draco. I can't do this." I say breathlessly.

My heart in it's burst of fire is drenched in the snow. Frozen, broken. A thousand tun of ice bricks weighing it down.

"Why?" Draco sounds obliterated.

I push past him. I throw my hands between the flames and start conjuring a spell to bliss out the fire. I feel Draco move, turn around and then he freezes, staring at the flames in what I presume to be shock. He's lucky it's the field on fire and not him.

"How?" He finally manages to utter from behind me.

"This is what happens when my emotions get - Fuck!" I curse as a flame brushes against my out stretched hand.

Draco's wand flashes beside me and the flames start to grow increasingly smaller until there's nothing left but scorched grass.

"Is this why you keep pushing me away, y/n?"

I ignore him and kneel down onto the crumpled grass , breathing heavily and press my hands against the ashed ground. I mutter a spell under my breath and green grass pops up from underneath my palms and spread wide until the entire field is back to life.

I stand up and look at Draco. "You saw the flames." I gesture to the field. "Draco you saw how big they were, how far it spread. That," I point ," that's just a glimpse of how I feel about you. How you make me feel when you are near."

Draco opens his mouth to protest but I jump in before him. " This was just a kiss. Imagine what would happen if we did that again. This right here just proves what a ticking time bomb I am!"

"Y/n, you're not." Draco says helplessly.

I laugh and glance towards the field, my outstretched hand falling at my side.

"Draco cut the act. I know you just want my power. Take it by all means! Really, then you can bare the consequences of the solitude it bears." I snap.

"The fuck, y/n?" Draco growls. He shakes his head in dismay and then his head snaps up to me. "Why do you have to make it so fucking hard for me to love you?"

All I know at the moment is rage, I can't except other feeling dripping back in. "Because people I love die!" I swing my hands out. A shatter, multiple shatters fallows after that. Every single window on the ground in sight just broke into a million pieces. I did that. Inches close to doing something worse to Draco.

Draco's eyes grow with shock. I hope it grows with fear to. I hope he fears me and runs away.

"What do you mean?" He asks after a few moments of silence.

I take a deep breath, look him in the eyes to see how his honest reaction is towards my next words. "This ability that I poses. It killed my sister. I killed my sister because I love you. And don't get me wrong Draco, I love you which is a part of me that I thought I killed a long time ago. Loving you from a far is easy. You loving me back, I loving you this close, its dangerous."

To my surprise, Draco comes towards me. He doesn't cower and scramble away, he nears the ticking time bomb.

"Draco, don't." I plead.

He ignores my protest and walks to me until were almost chest to chest. I want to push away this rush of adrenaline, rush of electricity flowing through my veins, but the more I push it down, the more it comes back boiling to the surface. Draco takes my hands, I pull away but his grip tightens.

"Y/n, the first time I saw you, we were still kids but I knew then that something unfolded inside of me that I couldn't just crush up and throw away. For a long time I let it unfold, I watched you sitting at the Ravenclaw table wishing to just be able to sit beside you and when I was old enough to finally realised what this thing was unfolding inside of me for you, I thought that was dangerous. When I saw you in the train, it hit me that this would be my- our last year here, so I knew I just had to give it a shot. I couldn't and still can't watch you leave without trying, y/n"

"Draco, this is a different kind of danger." I say.

Just the idea of him loving me for that long, already stirs up emotions, more powerful emotions.

"No", He urges on and moves closer to me," it's not."

And he kisses me, fierce and strong and messy but it's wonderful al together. I, despite myself, fall into his web again and kiss him back, gripping my hands at his chest, tugging him closer by his clothes. I breathe in between the movement and try to speak. "Draco-" he cuts me off by continuing to kiss me. He breaks the kiss and leans his forehead against mine.

"Stop fighting me." He begs