first love

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                   Feeling the worst

The voices in my head,
Make me feel so scared.
Murdering people in my mind,
Would it help me, be less afraid?

A friend to all is a friend to none,
And I guess that friend is me.
I wish I didn't exist,
When all I'm doing is make other people flee.

I regret every action that I did,
Always hoping that I could go back in time.
I guess I'm just a procrastinator,
Who sleeps every night,
Wishing that they would die before morning arrives.

How does it feel to be the side friend?
A question that I would answer the best;
Smiling in everyone's face,
But nobody cares for me the least.
A face everyone knows and everyone forgets.
In the end, I guess I'm just a people pleaser after all;

Mama says to ignore everything,
Saying that I'm just victimizing myself;
But would you still feel that way,
When you would be standing in my shoes?

[10.1.24]

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This app has become a place for me to vent out my bottled up feelings whenever I am feeling a lot of intense and overwhelming emotions. It doesn't matter if anyone reads them or not, as long as I am able to maintain the peace of my mind.
But if you are taking out your time to read my amateur lines, I greatly appreciate it.