One of 10 - Nicole Lee Snsd

12.The Boys (English version)

To get up and get ready in the morning took around three hours. Because we always got up so damn early we usually drew who was going to get up first at 4 am and do their make-up.
When we came back from the US I was tired of this and I wanted to do my own makeup in the car so I could sleep longer. If Sunny and Tiffany arrived at the salon first at 4:30 then Taeyeon and Yuri would show up at 4:50 Then Yoona at 5:15 then Seohyun at 5:30 then Hyoyeon at 6:00 then Jessica at 6:20 and Sooyoung at 6:50 which meant Sooyoung drew the lucky paper and got to sleep the longest.First member got up at 4 while the lucky member woke up at 6:35 then of course there was me who got up at 7 am and did my own make-up.This didn't go well  and Taeyeon was asked to hold a meeting where all members agreed that I should take my part in the lottery and suffer like they did.I did my suffering already.I told them my doctor said I needed to sleep more to reduce my anxiety and depression. Next day a manager came to me and was like.
"Ehm you know how you need to sleep longer and do your make-up?
"Ehm yes" I said confused.
"Well can we have that on paper from your doctor, just a formality."
I remember looking at him and seeing Taeyeon's face right there. I didn't get it.The members really needed proof? Back then I was pissed off and felt betrayed. But now looking back I realize they were all suffering and all needed more sleep for their own mental health. I suppose they were jealous that I managed to get some sort of green card for more rest.

We were always in some sort of competition with each other under the surface. Yoona was the first one to have her own separate manager because she was so busy with her acting schedules.
Then Taeyeon also kind of got one for her radio show and then the managers rotated. 
But it was a big deal when something changed in girl-camp because of one person.
I think in my case they reacted bigger than normal because of Sooyoung's treatment.
One time we were all cleaning the dorm except her who laid on the couch and watched tv.
She had all the right in the world since she was in a car accident but that Cinderella and step-sister image left an impression. That type of frustration just gets swallowed and the next time something comes up it's extra sensitive. Taeyeon got whatever singing part she wanted.Songs were produced so that Hyoyeon could have her dance break. Jessica and Seohyun could visit their parents more while Yoona got a pass to miss dance rehearsals because of auditions. They all had a  pass for something.But here in this dressing rooms taking out curlers,spraying more hairspray and finding the right minishorts ,there was no time to bicker, the train was going.
This thing with me doing my make-up was going to blow over in 5 days and then there be a group vote about whether or not Sooyoung has brought in too many plants.   

"The Boys" was our first album in Korea in a year. Documenting this long-anticipated comeback was a reality show called"Star Life Theatre."
Everybody was on edge during this comeback more so than our debut and "Gee".I didn't understand why.I knew that my energy of being cool and having a ball was going to stress them out even further.Stop freaking out it's not like the president is in the first row!! I wanted to yell but couldn't.My mind was like we are the top girlgroup and we need to beat the competition.
The other members were like 'Oh "The boys" is a different concept if this doesn't go well our career is over we could crash and burn in a week,what will we do if we fall and it's all my fault cause I messed up a dance move?Being in the top group meant that the world would be watching all the time.

The thing I hated more than anything while promoting was to sign our album and hand it out to fellow artists at the broadcasting stations.Like what if they don't even like us?I hate socializing with people who don't want to socialize with me but feel like they have to because they can't be impolite.This stuff fell on members like Tiffany and Taeyeon.Mostly.

"We're going to see Brown Eyed Girls" Sooyoung told me.I dragged myself out and went along.They were one of our buddy girlgroups. In the corridors, there were always other idols coming our way.
"Yoona don't bow so deeply we are the sunbaes(Industry senior) "I told her.
"Aha we are? Who was that guy?"She asks
"I don't know but since we don't know him he has to be a Hobae(Industry Junior)." I joke. 

The cameras of our reality show followed us in our day-to-day life like Sooyoung and Yuri going to the same classes at  University. I wanted to go to University too but I couldn't do it, my body was not capable.Yuri could wake up at 4 am and write an essay all morning as she was getting her hair done for tv.I knew I would go when our schedules wasn't so insane.