Beauty & The Beast II

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God gave me a family just to take it back.

As a kid I always just wanted a regular family. My family or the family I had wasn't close to regular but I love them. A regular family is a mom and dad with one brother and a sister and possibly a dog. I had a mom that's was killed by my mama so I was raised by my bitter aunt until my mama came in the picture and her and my stepmom took me in. They got a million damn kids between  hundred households!

..But  that was starting to be regular for me

I stood in the mirror with a few pills I took out the medicine cabinet.

I can't continue this shit. I'm not happy at all. Waking up in the morning it's something you have to live for, I don't have.

No job, not in school, no family, and every bitch done got an abortion. I don't blame them though. This Marrero blood needs to die. As soon as women born with dicks became normal it should've been ended.

I looked over my note one more time

To the people I call family, thank you for a few good years but the pain is unbearable. Everything I know is a damn lie like that shit not even fucking cool. I ain't no pussy ass nigga but this just some I can't even deal with
I give yall permission to lie on my name cause i'm a real ass nigga!
I already deal with personal insecurities. i'm a female with a dick so everybody want me to be hardbody and be a carbon copy of my mom, Katorah but sometimes I be want to wear wigs and shit. IM STILL A GIRL! When I met my mom I was wearing a half shirt with tights but y'all make it seem like i'm a boy because I have boy parts
Yall some real niggas and i hope im loved as much as i love yall

I guess that's cool. Nobody really teach you how to write a suicide note.

I took the pills

This was my last chance to throw it up but I didn't want to

Ari POV

"You're going to make me so much money" 

"Dave please just let me go" I'm going to say I've been here for about two weeks now. I hate it so damn much. Granted, who likes being kidnapped? "if it's money you want I can get you that" he can have them kids college savings if he want

This man and his friends come in here and feel on me and I'm sure they masturbate when I'm showering. They leave the door open and it's no shower curtain and although I would rather not undress in front of them, I have to keep my hygiene up as much as possible. He could stop offering showers and I cannot sit and smell myself.

"I can make more off you then what's in that account of yours"

"Whether you kill me or sell me to the highest bidder my wife is going to kill you. You might as well let me cut you a check and let me go. I can stop her from doing something to you"

I mean I can try. She's going to kill him I'm so sure of it but I'll still tell him what he wants to hear though

"Girl your wife is in fucking jail" he went on his phone "the bitch is going to the feds"

He showed me a mugshot and I knew it was recent. Most of her mugshots she's smiling but I couldn't help but notice the pain in her eyes. Yeah her wife is missing but something happened. It had to.