i told you - chris sturniolo

20. consume- chase atlantic

chris

It's been a whole week since toris mom had passed. She didn't want to miss school, but even at school she was silent. Not a word, and i was fucking terrifed. See with tori she's a ticking time bomb. I know she's gonna explode soon. There's been a few occasional yes's and no's, but mostly head nodding and sad looks. Even with Nick and matt. Even with my mom. She's never like that with my mom.

They all knew what happened. I got the nod of approval from Tori so I could tell them. Tori and I have been at her house. I know she just wants to be away from everyone.

"Hey mama, want me to get mcdonalds?" I ask Tori as she lays in her bed. She just nods "your usual?" I ask again and she nods.

I get tori 10 piece chicken nuggets, a mcdouble extra pickles, a medium fry, and a medium dr pepper. And because i want her to cheer up a medium oreo mcflurry.

I just got a 20 piece nugget, a large fry, and a large pepsi. I'm not in the mood for a burger right now

After the food arrives i take it up to her and she looks at me with sad eyes. I can't take her sad stares and sad state anymore. "Babe can we please talk?''I ask. She nods and sits up "so, i'm right here to listen to whatever you have to say, whatever you want to get out of your system i'm here to listen" i tell her staring into those hazel eyes i love

"Uhm, i don't know where to start" she says softly. I didn't realize until now how much I missed her sweet soft voice "take your time. I'm not leaving" i reassure her

"First, I love you so much and thank you for being here with me this whole time. Chris you really are the only one i wanna be around sometimes. Second, even if my mom was a junkie I still love her. I just can't help but think what would happen if I was actively here when she was alive? Would I have helped her? I just don't know. I've been super anxious. Please understand that I'm trying my hardest and my head is a mess, but I'm trying regardless. Anxiety is one hell of a problem" she says

"First I love you so much more and you never have to worry about me leaving you. And the feeling is mutual as much as I love my brothers, you're just a different story. I really don't know what to say about your mom, these are all what-ifs situations that could have happened, but they didn't. And it's not your fault okay?" i tell her

"This is why I love you so much," she says, putting her food down and leaning in for a kiss. Have i mentioned that we haven't kissed this whole goddamn week. so this whole miserable week i've been kiss deprived. I pull tori closer and let her kiss me at her own pace, but of course kissing her back.

Even if I was kiss deprived I still have to think about toris feelings. She pulls away and just sits close by me as we talk about different things, like her anxiety, and why was ranch called ranch

After eating I take all the trash and go downstairs. While I'm down here might as well take the trash out. So I do.

When I make my way back to tori's room the bathroom door is open and the shower is on. I figure that she just wants my presence "chris?" Tori calls "yea ma?" I say walking into the bathroom "what are you doing getting in here" she says "you sure?" i ask "of course babe c'mere" she says pulling the shower curtain open the slightest.

After our shower, we get dressed and lay in her bed "chris" she says and i look up from her chest where i was laying "how many kids do you want?" she asks "2" i tell her "so they won't be alone" i add "me too" she says "really?" I ask looking up once again at the goddess I get to call my girlfriend "yea since my siblings ditched as soon as they could i wouldn't want our kids to be lonely" she says.

our? My god this woman really does something to me "i get that, but at the same time i don't because being a triplet is all i know. But then again that's the reason I want two kids so neither of them get lonely. What do you wanna name our kids?" I ask her to look down at me with complete love in her eyes. "I honestly don't know. Let's talk about it when the time comes" she says

We cuddle up with my head in toris neck, half of me on top of her. Toris arms are wrapped around my bare neck, and my arms are wrapped around her torso. "Goodnight tori i love you" i tell her "goodnight chris i love you too" she says almost immediately.

A little while later I drift off to sleep. With the girl i'm gonna marry right beside me

a/n- i love this chapter it's so sweet