Destined (jilix×skz)/ OT8

Chapter 19

Seungmin's pov
"seungie are you okay?" wonpil hyung who was preparing breakfast asked as soon as I entered the kitchen...i feel like shit...i couldn't sleep for the whole night...jisung and jeongin texted me none stop they wanted to meet up to talk but I blocked them both.......i can't believe after I opened my heart to another person I got hurt again....why is this happening to me? First hwang hyunjin and now han jisung...like why?  Maybe I am cursed.
"where is jeongin?" my brother asked again" I did not see him..."

"he didn't come since yesterday...and I don't know where he is or care" I cut him off making the older's eyes turn wide.
"did you fight?" he asked.
"I don't want to talk about it" I answered sipping my coffee...my head hurt like hell.
"I understand...but according to what you told me he had no one here...where did he spend last night?" he asked making me eyes widen as I glanced at him and then at my cup...he is right...he has no one...i shook my head gripping the cup harder....i am sure he went with jisung...those cheaters can go to hell.
"I am going to work...bye" I said walking out of the room.

The image from last night didn't leave my head, I trusted jisung with my heart...and jeongin...he...like I just told him how difficult for me it was to open my heart again...then he went and kissed my boyfriend....for god's sake each time I remember it I feel my blood boil with anger...like how dare they? Do they think I am a fool? Is this why jisung asked me if Jeongin and I were a thing? Did he feel for the younger and was trying to make sure we weren't together before? But why...why did he ask me to be his boyfriend if he was planning to cheat? I am going to lose my mind...thousands of questions filled my head...
"seungmin hyung" I stopped when I saw jeongin standing in the middle of the street a block from the coffee shop.

"what the hell do you want?" I asked glaring at the younger who seemed taken back what did he expect...he kissed my damn boyfriend.
"please I need you to listen to me..."
" I don't want you...you want jisung and he wants you then enjoy'' I cut him off " when I enter a relationship I except my partner to be faithful to me...if they don't want me...they can say it to my face...but what jisung did...what you did to me after everything....i will never forgive you"I added fighting my tears away...i won't cry in front of him...i won't memories from a few years ago come rushing into my head.

Flashback
"for how long you are going to keep up with hwang's shit?" heechul one of my friends asked.
"be nice he is going through a lot...he lost his mom..."
"you know he is doing drugs right...and god knows what else...he is just a freshman in college...yesterday I saw him with the seniors...they are bad news seung...keep an eye on your boyfriend" he cut me off making me frown...hyunjin lost his mom...i knew his since high school he was the sweetest boy ever...we were from different worlds I had never thought that we could get together...we were happy at first as close friends we spent time together but after since his mom fell sick he started to change...but after she died....i couldn't recognize him anymore what made it worse that his father got married again.

we just started dating this year I didn't even tell my brother about him...i am not even sure why he asked me to date him, it is true that we had this pull toward each other from a very young age but after his life turned upside down and  I didn't think we will get together...however we did...and he asked me to be his boyfriend two months ago...i was confused...since the hyunjin I knew was not there anymore....i refused at first but his words shocked me
' I lost a lot of people in my life seungmin...my mom died...my father started a new family....i just have you....i can't lose you too...i know I am a mess but I need you by my side....you are the light to my darkness Kim seungmin...please I need you minie'

I don't if it was because of what he said or because I was blindly in love with hwang hyunjin, the both of us had feelings toward each other but we never said it out loud...it was shocking when hyunjin reached out to me.
"I will talk to him heechul...don't worry" I said rubbing the other's arm.
"I really care about you seungmin...you are my friend...and hyunjin is no good for you...he will hurt you someday"heechul said before he left for his house.
I took a deep breath glancing at my phone, he did not come to college today...and he was not picking up my calls.
I need to check in with him, I immediately stopped a taxi before I went to his apartment...his father brought him one because he refused to live with him and his new family as hyunjin calls them anymore.