Destined (jilix×skz)/ OT8

Chapter 37

Chan's pov
"what I am going to do now?" I whispered under my breath leaving the station...i have been travelling nonstop for three days now...all I want is to get as far from Seoul as possible I am currently in Yeosu and I have no idea where to go next.
I walked down the busy streets trying to find a small restaurant to have lunch in it...i am kind of regret not taking my salary from yeri but when I texted her I was not in Seoul anymore...i did not tell her before because I did not want changbin or one of the others to try and stop me.

I finally found what I was looking for...a traditional Korean restaurant...i made my way toward an empty table before a young-looking man approached me.
"welcome sir...what can get you?" he asked giving me a small smile.
"some ramyeon and kimchi " I answered making him nod.
"anything else?" he asked again...i shook my head in response" okay"he added walking away.
I took a deep breath leaning into my chair...i am lost...i don't know what I should do... my life always revolved around my prince...i grew up in the castle with no family...since I was a little boy I was told that I would grow up to be his guard...and I did...then I fell for him.

When I realized that I had developed feelings for him I was scared...hell of scared...our kingdom was known to be hostile with relationships between the same gender so I knew that I will be killed...however I was not scared of dying...i was scared of losing hyunjin...i was scared that he will hate me if he finds out...i mean he always teased me and like flirted but I thought he was joking or playing around...of course I chose to keep my feelings locked up inside my heart and that was the hardest thing I had ever done... But I didn't manage to hide it for that long...Prince hyunjin read me like an open book...when I am around him I can't fake or hide my feelings.

Flashback
"you are going to tell me what is happening with you?" the door of my chamber busted open revealing prince hyunjin.
"your highness..."
"we had a practice why didn't got come?" he asked cutting me off.
"I am a bit sick" I said standing up from the bed.
"you don't look sick to me"he answered scanning me" you have been coming up with excuses to run from me these past days...what is going on with you chan?" he added approaching me.

"nothing..."
"chan, you can't lie to me...you know that" he said stopping right in front of me...he was not much taller than me however he was tall enough to tower over me.
"your highness" I said taking a step back but he grabbed me by my wrist.
"no more running" he said pulling me closer to him, my whole world froze when we were inches away from each other...i can feel his breath hitting my face...i...to see him this close...he...he is so beautiful...i am doomed...how I am going to forget about him?...how I am going to act like I am not madly in love with a man? Don't get me wrong...i am not just attracted to him physically...the prince was one of the nicest heart heartwarming person I have ever met.

The way he treats his people, I found him multiple times trying to sneak out of the castle just to go and help orphans and homeless people...i think that's when I started falling from him...his heart...his pure heart what made me fall for him...he is nothing like his father...he is going to make a great king...yes he is going to be the king and I am just his guard...i need to realize that and stop living inside my head...he is the freaking heir to the throne.
"chanie" he whispered pulling me out of my thoughts" can I kiss you?"he added scanning my face...what...did I hear him right? Is he making fun of me? Okay maybe this is a dream...god if it is I don't want to wake up.

"prince hyunjin "I tried to pull away but he didn't let me...i can easily escape his grip but the way he was looking at me right now is making it hard for me to even think.
"I know who I am...answer me chanie"he said glancing toward my lips and then back to my eyes."damn it...i can't do this anymore...i am sorry"he added before he crashed our lips together...my eyes widened when I felt his soft lips on mine...what is he doing?
He pulled away when I didn't kiss him back staring at me with confused face"I thought...i thought you liked me back...i...i apologize "he said looking away.
"like you back...you mean...my prince this is can't happen...you are the heir..."
"stop calling your prince...i hate that dumb title when I am with you"he yelled" when I am next to you I want to be hyunjin...just hyunjin the man who is deeply in love with you damn it" he added making me freeze.
"I...i love you too" Those were the only words that left me...from that day everything changed...we know we were playing with fire and at the end I lost him.