Without you (a Matthew Kim/Bm x male reader story)

Ch 13

(Declan's Pov)

Silently heading over to the spot Matt pointed out I immediately grab my phone and text Abby letting her know where I'm at she telling me that she's recording her parts for our new song so she won't be home for a while. I put my phone away and look up curiously when Matt's manager approaches me he giving me a slight look. "You're apart of that new duo the company just debuted aren't you?" I nod saying softly. "Yes hyung it's me and my twin sister." He raises an eyebrow at me. "How did you end up such close friends with Matt?" I frown before answering. "He's been helping me work out when we ran into each other in the gym and then our groups made a song together so we became friends." The manager slowly nods then says sternly. "Well don't make him late again or I'll have to have a word with Matt. Because I'm sure he had to go pick you up." I bite my tongue and just bow politely nodding he thankfully leaving and my attention quickly goes to Matt wearing a black leather jacket with no shirt underneath I swallowing a little but push down my arousal. I see him look at me and he looks around cautiously before sending me a smirk and a flirty wink I immediately blushing. He then turns his attention to the director and they speak for a moment before Matt goes to get in position the song starting and he starts dancing a little doing moves to emphasize the words. I watch with a little smile on my face nodding my head along to the beat of the song. After a while of Matt recording he goes to change into a different outfit and I can't help but look curious when the director says to call in the actress. I watch as a really pretty and fit woman walks over to the director I seeing Matt walking over he wearing a form fitting black shirt and silver pants with the woman wearing a black shirt that shows her stomach and some pants. Matt and the woman immediately get into an intimate position and the music starts they starting to dance together and Matt's hands start to roam the woman's body I getting a pang of jealousy in my heart. The director finally yells cut and says that they'll film the water scene in a minute I watching as the woman gets Matt's attention and they start talking and laughing I quickly becoming self conscious. Flinching slightly as the woman puts a flirty hand on Matt's shoulder I take a breath and try to calm my emotions watching as they head back to the filming spot. They get into an intimate position again and water starts raining down on them while they start dancing again I unable to handle it when Matt holds her from behind and has their hips flush against each other. I turn around and storm out of the building then turn a corner heading for the alley where I immediately kick over an empty trash can letting out a frustrated yell. I then run a hand through my dark brown hair and start pacing around for a while when I hear footsteps approaching I saying in a firm tense voice. "Go away." The footsteps get closer and I hear Matt's concerned tone. "Declan what's wrong? Why'd you storm out?" I stop pacing and look up at him my hazel brown eyes filling with tears. "Because I'm not good enough! I'm nothing like the girls in your songs. I'm not sexy, I'm not attractive, I'm not confident or like to show off. I'm not fit or curvy or thick. I'm socially awkward and a skinny guy with hardly any muscle mass. I don't deserve someone like you." He immediately frowns. "What do you mean someone like me?" I feel tears running down my face as I say seriously. "Come on Matt you're the ultimate muscular jock. You're every girl and gay guys dream. You're tall, muscular, strong, sexy but you're not a brainless stereotype. You're sweet and caring. You're smart and amazing when it comes to being intimate." I take a breath before continuing my rant. "I don't deserve you and the only reason we're even together is because we were made to work together. If we were in high school or in a regular environment you'd probably never spare me a second glance because I'm not your type." I lower my head wiping my eyes when suddenly my chin is being lifted and I'm made to look at Matt he giving me a serious stern look. "It's true that I did have this image of the kind of person that I'd end up with but when I met you all of that flew straight out the window. Now you say you aren't sexy? Baby you drive me crazy with how sexy you can be. Not attractive? That's the biggest lie I've ever heard because you're plenty attractive. Now I know you aren't a confident person but I'm gonna try and help you be more confident in yourself. You don't show off? I love how humble and kind you are and don't you dare change. Now the last thing in your list is not being fit, curvy or thick. You don't need to be all muscular, curvy or thick because I like your body the way it is. Now what brought all this self hatred on?" I wipe my eyes and I hesitate before mumbling softly. "The dance positioning. That woman was gorgeous and has the perfect body shape and proportions. And she was enjoying being close to you way too much." He blinks before his expression softens. "Oh babe. You're being jealous for nothing. You're mine and I'm yours. I'm sorry that girl made you jealous but I'll always come back to you no matter what." I sniffle a little feeling emotional and Matt cups my cheek affectionately before he kisses me passionately I immediately kissing him back eagerly. He moves his other hand and gently grabs my behind making me jump and pull away from him a little giving him a look. "Don't start something when you'll have to run off." He immediately gives me a reassuring smile ."I'm done with filming so I'm all yours. So let's go to my apartment." I nod in agreement and we head to his truck getting in I a little lost in thought. We then come to a stop and get out I following him inside the apartment we taking off our shoes. Then I feel Matt wrap his arms around my waist and he nuzzles that sensitive spot on my neck I letting out a little moan. "Let's play a game. See how many times we can get you to finish before having to stop." I shiver and then tilt my head slightly to look at him. "Alright. But if it gets to be too much I'll say red." He nods in understanding then tells me to go ahead and get on the bed I rushing to his room doing so. I already take my shirt off using it to wipe the makeup off my neck when Matt walks in carrying a bottle of lube he raising an eyebrow at me. "Someone's an eager baby boy." I blush and he makes his way over setting the bottle of lube on the nightstand before he pulls his shirt off and kisses me passionately. I moan and immediately kiss him back eagerly I being lowered against the mattress. He then pulls my pants and underwear off when I give him permission and he grabs the lube before he pours some on his fingers entering one in me I letting out a moan and he soon adds the second and third fingers my hips bucking down. He pulls his fingers out and lubes himself up before gently entering me I whining a little still not used to how big he is he making me feel so much pleasure. He then pulls out before slamming back in I moaning loudly in pleasure. "Oh Matt!" He groans and continues at a slow but intense pace I moaning and whimpering in pleasure  crying out when he finds that spot in me. "Fuck Matt!" He buries his face in my neck murmuring huskily in my ear. "Such a good boy. You close?" I whine and nod quickly. "Uh huh close." He growls and nips roughly at my jaw he bucking his hips into that spot making me yell out in pleasure as I finish. "Matt!" He stops moving and pulls out for a moment I breathing heavily as he caresses my hip with his thumbs. "You ready to go again?" I swallow but nod and he says in a slightly dominant tone. "Head down ass up baby boy." I whimper but I do as said resting my head on the pillows with my hips raised into the air. He gently grabs my hip with one hand before gently entering me again I letting out a sigh of pleasure. Matt then grabs both my hips in his hands and gives an aggressive thrust I crying out in pleasure when he hits that spot immediately. He starts a fast and brutal pace loud cries and whimpers of pleasure leaving me. Just as I start getting close Matt gently but firmly pulls me up against his chest I gasping my breath hitching in pleasure and vision blurring from the intense pleasure from the deeper angle. "M.... Matt... c... fuck I'm close again." He bucks his hips into that spot in me and I scream out in pleasure as I finish again Matt quickly pulling out and gently lowers me back to the bed I panting a little. "You good to go one last round?" I moan but give a little nod and he suddenly lays back against the mattress where he looks at me. "Alright baby you just have to straddle my hips and sink yourself down on me." I swallow but do as he says I slowly guiding myself down on him hissing at the sensitive feeling. I take a moment to stay still for a moment then slowly start moving my hips letting out moans and whimpers Matt's hands going to my hips to guide me. Panting and shaking I already feel myself getting close I leaning down and lock my lips with Matt he bucking up into me and I moan into the kiss as I finish again nothing coming out and Matt shudders as he topples over the edge too I shivering at feeling him inside of me. I pull away from the kiss panting feeling completely exhausted and Matt's expression softens as he carefully moves us so we're laying down and I doze off immediately when I hear him tell me to sleep.