Without you (a Matthew Kim/Bm x male reader story)

Ch 19

The next morning I wake up before the alarm that was set I staring at the ceiling for a while before I carefully maneuver myself out of Matt's arms and go to grab some clothes to change into. I change into some jeans and a shirt but my gaze goes to the deep scars on my wrists a frown coming to my face. I'll have to ask Matt to borrow a jacket so that I can hide the scars. Sighing I run a hand through my hair in frustration feeling guilty that Matt wants to quit if the company won't let us be together. I don't want him to have to choose between me and his career but I also don't want to lose him. Sighing I shake my head and go to brush my teeth then make us some breakfast I so lost in my thoughts that when I'm using the knife I accidentally slice my finger I hissing slightly and quickly put my finger under the water in the sink. It takes a minute to stop bleeding and I go to the bathroom to grab a band aid. Just as I'm digging for a band aid I suddenly hear Matt's panicked voice. "Declan?!" I blink but call out reassuringly. "I'm in the bathroom." I hear him running to the bathroom he throwing the door open I just wrapping the band aid around my finger. "Are you okay?! I saw blood on the counter." I give him a reassuring smile. "I'm fine love I just accidentally cut my finger. It took a minute to stop bleeding so I kinda got some blood on the counter." He looks relieved and I realize what he must've thought. "I'm doing better Matt I'm not gonna hurt myself purposely anymore." He gives me a sheepish apologetic look. "I know I just got worried when I saw blood." I nod then move past him going to clean up the counter I having to throw the vegetables I was cutting away. "We should stop and get breakfast." He agrees and assures me he'll get ready quickly he rushing off to the bedroom. After I get everything cleaned up I head to the bedroom and say softly. "Hey Matt can I borrow a jacket? I don't want my arms to be visible," he looks at me with a frown but nods and throws me a leather jacket I surprised since it's his favorite but I put it on. We then pull on our shoes and head out to his truck where we pick up breakfast eating it then head to the company. I nervously follow Matt up to his practice room I just barely making it through the door when suddenly I'm tackled in hugs by the girls I blinking in surprise. "You had us all worried sick. Please don't ever hurt yourself again." I give them a small reassuring smile. "I'm okay now don't worry." They nod then excuse themselves to go talk to Matt while Taehyung approaches me. "Hey how are you feeling?" I shift a little before saying honestly. "Better. Therapy's helped a lot and so has Matt's support." He nods in understanding before saying softly. "I'm sorry our manager forced Matt to leave you. If we'd have known the situation we would've done something." I give him a reassuring look. "It's okay hyung. I just dread the conversation Matt's going to end up having with the manager and everything. He's talking of quitting and I don't want to be the reason he does." Taehyung gives me a soft smile. "I'm sure it won't come to that. We'll back you and Matt up though. We know how much you both love each other and no one deserves to lose the person who's obviously their soulmate." I immediately blush and say shyly. "I don't know about the whole soulmates thing...." He raises an eyebrow at me. "You two were clearly made for each other. You gotta admit that you two were meant to be together." I blush more and giggle nervously. "I mean I don't know. I do know I felt weird when I first saw him and started talking to him." He grins down at me saying teasingly. "Love at first sight then." I hide my face in embarrassment for a moment before I playfully slap his shoulder. "Hush." He chuckles then suddenly Matt approaches he wrapping an arm around my waist and cuddles me into his side I instinctively snuggling into him for a moment. "You guys should probably start practicing." Taehyung agrees with me and I pull away from Matt saying softly. "I'll sit in the back." I head to the back couch and turn my attention to them practicing for a while when suddenly the door opens and I immediately freeze when I see their manager enter his gaze going to me and I see his eyes narrow I swallowing nervously. He then looks at Matt saying angrily. "What is he doing here? I thought you broke up with him!" Matt gives him a stern look. "I did but we couldn't handle being apart. Look hyung I'm not leaving him. We love each other and are happy together. And I'll do anything to keep him in my life." The manager stares at him then me and says firmly. "Even though his career will be ruined?" I speak up firmly. "If I can't be with Matt I don't want to perform. Abby's okay with this decision too." The manager seems stunned by that decision before his eyes narrow again. "Matt this could also ruin your career. And your group's reputation." Matt goes to say something when Somin speaks up. "We don't care. We'll happily be behind Matt and Declan's relationship." Jiwoo and Taehyung nod agreeing. The manager looks at all of us before grumbling in an angry reluctant tone. "Fine you two can be together." He then storms off and I let out a breath of relief relaxing a little. I then look at Somin and the others thankfully. "Thanks for sticking up for us guys." They wave me off assuring me that as long as we're happy that's all that matters to them. They then start up practice again I watching feeling happy and content.