Without you (a Matthew Kim/Bm x male reader story)

Ch 18

*a few weeks later*

Over the next few weeks Matt and I both call off work for a break so we can focus on my health and everything. I've actually managed to gain enough weight so I'm not dangerously underweight anymore and I've been going to therapy regularly. Slowly waking up in Matt's arms I let out a little happy sigh of contentment just laying there for a moment before I start to get up I just barely sitting up and go to get out of bed only to yelp when I'm pulled back against Matt's chest. He looks down at me with a raised eyebrow holding me firmly. "And where do you think you're going?" I pout a little. "I was going to get up and maybe get a shower." He hums before leaning down kissing me softly for a second before he pulls away with a smirk saying huskily. "I think we should stay in bed." I feel my cheeks heat up a little as I immediately get hard Matt looking at me a little surprised since I'm pressed up against him. Feeling embarrassed I hide my face against his chest whining. "It's been a while and I missed you." He gently makes me look at him he saying softly. "I missed you too baby. Now let me make you feel good." I swallow as he moves us so I'm laying back against the bed he tugging my shirt off before pulling his off as well. He then pulls my pants and boxers off before he grabs the lube from the nightstand. He then pours some on his fingers before carefully entering one into me I letting out a little gasp before relaxing a little. He then slowly adds a second finger in me I letting out a little whine once he enters a third. "M.... Matt please...." He groans and pulls his fingers out before pouring some of the lube on himself then he positions himself at my entrance then slowly and gently enters me I letting out a little moan. He groans and stops once he's fully inside me I panting a little whimpering in a needy tone. "Please!" He slowly pulls out before gently thrusting back into me I moaning softly he keeping a slow gentle pace burying his face against my neck murmuring huskily. "God I love you so much baby boy." I moan whimpering as he gently intertwines our fingers together before pinning them above my head he thrusting a little deeper I crying out when he hits that certain spot. "Oh god Matt! L.... Love you too. Love you so much." He groans making sure to hit that spot with each thrust I whining in pleasure. "C.... Close!" He nips at the sensitive spot on my neck before saying softly. "Finish for me baby. Let go." I whine then let out a loud cry of pleasure as I finish he soon toppling over as well I shuddering as I feel him inside me. We both stay together for a moment breathing heavily before he slowly moves pulling out of me and lays down beside me cuddling me close pecking my lips lovingly. "I love you." I blush and say a little shyly. "I love you too." He grins before slowly letting me go he getting up and I go to protest when suddenly I'm being scooped up into his arms making me squeak in surprise as he carries me to the bathroom. He gently sets me on my feet before he starts the water for the shower I watching him my heart swelling with pure love, affection and happiness for this man. Snapping out of it when I hear the shower start I carefully get in and Matt gets in after me. We both wash up and get cleaned before getting out I drying off then rush off to Matt's room and pull on some sweatpants and a t shirt. I then skip off to the kitchen and start digging around for ingredients to make dinner I happily starting to cook. As I'm cooking I'm so absorbed in my thoughts I don't notice Matt approaching until his arms are wrapped around my waist I jumping slightly before I melt back into him. "You should probably start heading back to practice soon." He hums resting his chin on my shoulder. "You trying to get rid of me?" I roll my eyes but say softly. "No. I just know you'll have to get ready for a comeback soon." It's quiet for a moment before he says softly. "I'll head back tomorrow but I want you to come with me." I blink a little in surprise before saying in a teasing tone even though I'm actually serious. "What you're not sick of me yet?" He waits for me to turn the oven off and put the food on plates before he gently turns me around to face him a serious look on his face. "I will NEVER get sick or tired of you Declan. I love you with every fiber of my being and I'm happy to see you as much as possible." I blush slightly but still feel a little anxious. "I'm just afraid that I'm being too clingy or annoying." He frowns and says softly. "Declan I'm sorry if I made you feel bad about yourself but you're not being too clingy or annoying. Baby nothing you did made me leave. If you want to be clingy and affectionate then I'll happily embrace it because I love you and I love your cuddles and kisses." I blush seeing the honesty in his eyes and shyly kiss his cheek before changing the subject. "Let's eat." He smiles and heads to the table I grabbing the plates and set them down on the table and we sit down eating and talk happily about his practice tomorrow. We finish eating putting the dishes in the sink then I rub my eyes tiredly Matt scooping me up and carries me to bed laying down with me in his arms and I immediately relax and fall asleep.