addicted [hyunho]

[11] can't stop

-can't stop-

Hyunjin and Minho were falling into a routine, where Minho would visit him after work on some days. Whenever he was here, Hyunjin promised himself to resist this time, but he just needed to see Minho's smile and his heart would melt.

How could he say now when Minho finally wanted him after so many years?

After weeks of sleeping with his best friend, Hyunjin stopped asking when he would tell Felix. He knew that Minho only wanted his body, but while they had sex, Hyunjin tried to ignore that fact. It almost felt like Minho was actually his boyfriend.

Unfortunately that feeling only lasted until Minho left. Then Hyunjin was alone, in his small, quiet apartment and the emptiness that spread in his chest caused him so much pain.

It really broke Hyunjin's heart, because he was so close to getting what he wanted, and yet he couldn't reach it. It hurt, especially that he couldn't talk to anyone about what was happening.

Paired with the guilt of everything, he just felt like a horrible person for doing this to himself, to Minho and to Felix.

But whenever Minho touched him, those thoughts just magically disappeared and he was falling back into the addiction. No matter how bad he felt afterwards, the high seemed worth it every time.

"See you tomorrow, Jinnie." Minho smiled slightly. In the beginning, Minho had been embarrassed whenever he had left, but it had stopped after a while.

It had almost become normal for them and this should have never happened. They should have stopped when they still had had the chance. But then again, they could always stop.

It just wasn't as easy as it seemed whenever Hyunjin closed the door behind Minho, promising himself that this was the last time he had let this happen.

With a heavy sigh, Hyunjin fell down onto his couch. Everything hurt and he was tired. He had washed his body already, to get rid of the sweat and the scent of sex. At least, Minho stayed over for a while to make sure he was okay.

Just when he closed his eyes, Hyunjin heard soft knocks on the door. Confused, he furrowed his brows. Minho had left about five minutes ago and all he wanted to do was sleep a bit.

He immediately changed his mind, when he opened the door and Jamie jumped into his arms. "Uncle Jinnie!" He kissed Hyunjin's cheek, when Hyunjin picked him up with a wide smile.

The small sunshine could really make him forget everything. "Hey, Jamie. What a surprise." He hadn't expected to see Jamie and Changbin today, so he tilted his head to the side questioningly, when his eyes met Changbin's.

"Can you look after him for a while?" It seemed to be very important and a spontaneous decision.

"Yes, of course." Hyunjin placed Jamie down again, his shirt slipping down a bit in the process, revealing the hickeys on his collarbones.

Changbin raised a brow. He had noticed Hyunjin's messy hair already, but he had thought it came from dancing. The hickeys made the situation look different, though and he already had an idea, when guilt flashed over Hyunjin's face.

"We'll talk about that later." It wasn't a question, still Hyunjin shook his head.

"No, thank you." Then he closed the door, when Changbin turned around to leave quickly.

"Do you know where your dad is going?" Hyunjin asked, opening his fridge for Jamie to pick anything he wanted.

Jamie shook his head, too distracted by all the yummy food in the fridge, that he couldn't asnwer. But he didn't know the answer anyway and he didn't care where his dad was going as long as he would pick him up later and as long as he was cuddled into a fluffy blanket on Hyunjin's couch.