What's a Heart to a Soul

1.14 V-Card

(A/N) ⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ this chapter contains sexual content!

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The door swung wide open and revealed Devin who extended out a single white rose to me, its memory flickering in my mind. She was wearing a red button up and form fitting tight black jeans with mismatched socks. Her smile was wide, her eyes like lightning as she looked me up and down. I moved first, pulling her into a tight hug, her skin on mine sending a calm over me in an instant.

"God I missed you." She mumbled out, her arms tightly wrapped around my neck.

I smiled to myself, "I missed you too."

She pulled back and extended out the rose once more. I extended mine to her and we swapped them, both giggling like school girls as we stared back at one another.

"Let the poor girl in, would you?" Devin's mother chirped from inside.

We both laughed awkwardly as she stepped to the side to let me in. I stepped through the doorway and was transported up to her room where she sat on the edge of the bed, a curious look behind her gaze.

"I can tell you want to ask me something so what is it?" I asked as I crossed my arms subconsciously over my chest.

She bit her tongue and rolled her eyes humorously as she breathed out her nose, "When did you become so blunt?"

"I just know you." I shrugged.

She nodded, smiling at the ground, "Well we haven't really talked about what happened."

"You mean when I ignored you for a few days and then had a panic attack?" I questioned, my fingers tightening on my arms.

Her eyes were wide as she stared back at me, "Uh, yeah, I mean I guess I just want to understand why you ignored me and what I did."

"You didn't do anything I just kind of freaked out." I shrugged as I looked up at the ceiling.

I knew she would be biting her tongue now as a silence settled over us, "Why did you freak out?"

I let out a low sigh, "You're just so experienced when it comes to like sex stuff and I'm" I threw my hands in the air as I started pacing "I'm just a loser virgin who has no idea what they're doing. I mean you're literally the only person I've even kissed and I'm pretty sure I was terrible at that until we got a lot of practice in and I can only imagine how terrible I'd be at" I paused, gulping down the bit of saliva in my mouth as my heart started racing out of control, "you know sex and stuff."

She sat frozen staring back at me, before shaking her head, "Okay first of all I cannot imagine a world where having sex with you is any less than amazing, second I had no idea you were still a virgin or that I was the only person you'd kissed. Why have you never told me that before? Third you're not a loser and you are a terrific kisser despite that first terrible one in middle school."

I looked down at the ground to avoid her gaze, "I mean didn't you think it was a little weird you've never seen me with anyone else or heard about me dating anyone else? I thought it was pretty obvious you were the only person I've been with considering we tell eachother everything and I've never even once mentioned an ex or a hook up or anything."

"Yeah I guess it does make sense." She paused as I glared up at her and she instantly backtracked "What I mean is that you're just so sweet, and like innocent, and honestly considering how well I know you I should've realized. I guess in my head there was just no way I could possibly be the only one because you're just so beautiful and amazing that I feel like everyone would want to be with you. I've thought about asking but I honestly didn't want to know the answer."