loml - Walker Scobell

3. yelling

i sat up and rubbed my eyes, looking out the window into the rainy darkness. i saw a figure outside and squinted my eyes.

"what the.."

i walked over to my window and saw walker looking in. my eyes widened as my first thought was to let him in because it was probably cold out there. i quickly opened the window and allowed him to climb in.

"what are you doing here? are you ok?" i looked him up and down as he towered over me.

his head dropped to the floor and his curls dripped from the rain. he was soaked.

"liv," he looked up and looked into my eyes.

suddenly he grabbed my shoulders and pulled me into a hug. a soaking wet hug. his arms wrapped around my body as i just stood there, not hugging back because he was wet and i was disgusted.

"walker...i really don't want you to go," i felt tears coming to my eyes again.

why did i always get so emotional.

"i know, but you have to understand that this is one of my dreams."

"i do understand!" i accidentally raised my voice, "but you aren't understanding my feelings!"

"liv you don't need to yell, please."

"no walker!" i was getting angry now apparently? "you can't go!"

"liv stop yelling at me! i want to go pursue my dreams!"

i bit my lip and shivered because he got me wet. i was getting mad and i didn't know why.

"why can't you just get a job here? why does it have to be in europe!"

"because this project is huge! it's good pay and it will be a good experience! why can't you just be happy for me for once?"

now i was really mad.

"for once? for once! i have been proud of you ever since i have met you walker! you are my best friend and i am over the top excited for you all the time! this one time is when i don't want you to leave!"

"you are just being selfish!" he yelled, stepping closer to me.

"you are being a bitch!" i pointed in his face.

walker stared at me. we were both bawling our eyes out.

"i hope i never see you again," he mumbled slowly.

"you know what, go to europe," i sniffled, "i don't even care about you anymore."

i crossed my arms and saw the regret on his face. i felt it come upon my face too. all of the sudden my face was in my hands and i was letting out shaky breaths as i choked on my sobs. i couldn't let him see my face like this. i wanted to stay strong and i tried, but walker is my weak spot.

"liv im really sorry-" i heard him whisper.

i looked up and saw tears streaming down his cheeks. i shook my head as he tried to apologize.

"i can't handle this right now," i cried.

"me neither," he tried to wipe his tears, "maybe i actually shouldn't go."

i was about to say something, but i bit my tongue to hold back the words. thats when i realized, i was being selfish. i was totally being selfish. my tears overcame the feeling of only thinking of myself. walker needs to go to europe for work and achieve his goals. i couldn't be the one to hold him back.

"walker," i looked up and wiped my face, "you need to go. i can't be holding you back. im so sorry," my voice cracked, "i am so so sorry."

he didn't even think and pulled me into a hug. i stood there and thought for a second as his arms wrapped around me. oh how selfish i just was. its not like walker and i were married or something, he is free to do or go anywhere he wants. i am so terrible.

suddenly i wrapped my arms around him and he tightened his grip on my waist when he felt me hugging back. we stood in a tight hug for at least a minute.

"im sorry for yelling livi," he mumbled into my neck. his wet curls made me get goosebumps.

my hand went to the back of his neck, "im sorry for being selfish," i whispered into his ear.

yeah, i guess you could say walker and i were very, VERY close. people always thought we were dating, but of course we weren't. we were just as close as friends could be probably. sometimes it almost felt like we were dating or something, but we definitely were not. not close to that at all.

i also don't want to leave out aryan, but like i said before walker and i just have a really special connection. we hung out a lot, not leaving aryan out but if aryan wasn't free we would still hangout. aryan was fine with it, and i think he knows we have a special friendship that he wouldn't really have with either of us. our trio is still really special and there isn't like a duo in a trio or anything, because of course i am super close with aryan, but i am a bit closer to walker because i didn't have all my scenes with aryan, i had them with walker. sure i had a lot of scenes with aryan and walker, but mostly just walker.

walker and i hugged for a while longer before finally pulling away. i looked out my window and saw lightning strike not too far away. it was horribly storming out there.

"do you want to spend the night?" i looked up at walker.

he looked out the window then back to me, "i don't want to be any inconvenience, i can just go."

he started walking towards my window before i grabbed his arm, "no, you're staying."

he smiled and shrugged his shoulders before kicking off his shoes and placing them by my door neatly. i turned on my tv and put on an old percy jackson movie before walker sat down on the floor and started to watch like hes never seen it before. everyone knows he has watched the percy jackson movies a million times. i mean, so have i, but i guarantee walker can restate every line in the movie.

"you can take the bed walk," i laid down a blanket on the floor and a pillow for myself.

"absolutely not, sleep in your own bed."

i thought for a moment, i really don't want this poor kid to sleep on the floor.

"how about we both take the bed? it's pretty big and it's not like we will be cuddling or something," i laughed.

he chuckled and raised his eyebrows, slowly nodding his head.

"alright sure. only if you are 100% okay with that though?" he looked to me for one last assurance.

i nodded my head and he leaped into my bed, getting under the covers all nice and cozy.

"yeah just make yourself at home," i rolled my eyes and climbed into bed on the opposite side of him.

walker fell asleep in about 5 minutes. i sat in bed, staring up at the ceiling and listened to his light snores. he must have been really tired. i feel bad for fighting with him earlier, it was a huge mistake. i was being terribly selfish like i said before, and i didn't mean anything i said. i wanted him to go, but i just don't know if i could stand him being gone for so long.

A/N sorry for taking so long, remember to vote and comment if you are even reading this.