Was it you? - Jikook

8. Was never real anyway

Why did everything seem like goodbye?

It took a couple of weeks for his fiancee to contact him. A simple text message that she asked to meet him at her house.

He already had a cold mind. In such a way that it seemed that everything that had happened on the tour was nothing more than a hallucination, a product of his need to escape from it as before. However now, back home, he was back to himself. Jungkook wasn't one to let his guard down when he could be watched.

He then let Jimin also give him his space, with no more interaction than a couple of friendly smiles and zero exchanges of words. He slowly stopped seeing him for a while, especially because they were given a couple of weeks off as soon as they arrived in Seoul, and everyone planned to take it their own way.

In his bachelor apartment, Jungkook was smoking at the window, hidden slightly so that none of the eavesdroppers would see him from the outside.

He finished the cigarette butt and decided to meet Yabuki.

His house was far from Gangnam, on the outskirts of the city almost on the highway. As soon as he arrived he noticed the absence of the car in the garage.

"So they're out." He commented out loud, grateful to be able to see his fiancée alone, without the in-laws and their questions about the debt case.

Yabuki opened the door for him and bought him water in the kitchen. She was dressed modestly, with just a T-shirt and a long skirt, without showing too much. Her face was not made up, her loose hair gave her the appearance of a locked-up patient.

Jungkook decided to sit next to her and kiss her cheek.

"I missed you." He told her. Yabuki nodded his head.

"Me too." Trembling and with a funereal air, she pushed him back almost immediately.

"Well," Jungkook rubbed his hands on his pants, suddenly sweating all over, "what was it that you asked me to come over for?"

Both went to the living room and sat in the couch, a lingering of uncomfort between them. Yabuki seemed fragile all of the sudden, with a pale face and a look Jungkook had never seen on her before.

"I can't ask to see you just because?" She answered bluntly, her fiancé laughed uncomfortably.

"Of course, I was just surprised." Jungkook didn't know what else to say so he looked around, there were no servants. "Tell me, is everyone on vacation?"

"My parents went to Manila and I gave the servants the day off." Yabuki said simply, without changing the fixed expression on his face.

Jungkook nodded, with nothing to do but go to the kitchen to maybe get something to drink; Yabuki watched him carefully, relieved by his apparent calmness. He served himself in silence, and in silence drank.

"The tour was good." Yabuki suddenly mentioned, making her fiancé notice the white background that devoured the corners of the house. "My father received the report...more than sixty million collected, and it is only the approximated amount."

The man looked at her with a grimace on his face, a normal expression when they converted his sleepless nights and plane trips into a simple number.

"I guess he got excited about the wedding then." He replied coldly, as he put the juice back in the refrigerator. It was too sweet, burning him.

"Yes...until I told him it was better to cancel it."

Jungkook had to take a second to confirm that she had heard correctly.

"What did you said?"

Yabuki crossed her arms and sighed, looking into his eyes.

"I've lost the baby, Jungkook-ssi." She said flatly, and he couldn't see the pain in her expression. She said it as if they were the keys to the house. "While you were gone I had a fall and lost him. My father wanted me not to tell you anything but I knew it was useless..."

Jungkook didn't respond, he just hugged her tightly. He thought she would cry, but she didn't. She just held him back and buried her face in his chest.

"You know I would have been with you..." Jungkook said, with him almost on the verge of crying.

An egocentric cry of happiness.

Yabuki released him and looked into his eyes.

"It didn't make sense, you know it wasn't even four months." She looked at the ground, and back at him. "Besides, everything was for my father...from the beginning."

The two remained silent, he wanted to hug her again. In other circumstances he maybe he would have done it.

He couldn't help but think of Jimin. He had confused him, hadn't he? Jungkook said it wasn't a big deal to play to see if they would still have a night together but everything got out of control. Jimin had been hurt, and so was he. He felt guilty for thinking about his male lover in front of his now ex-fiancée, but he was not the owner of his thoughts.

"Are you sure you're okay?" He suddenly insisted, Yabuki sighed a smile.

"You don't have to pretend to care about this, I know you didn't even love the baby."

Jungkook took a few steps back, pressing his lips together. Suddenly a heavy masked fell off the ground. It was the one he had to put on after finding out the hot girl he slept one night in an after party was pregnant, after agreeing to marry her to save her family from bankruptcy and have a family together.

And thank God it did.

"So, this is it?"

"I talked to my family and they won't make a big fuss, so don't worry. The check from the first report is enough to get by, my father would want more but even though you were shit, I can't do that to you."

Should he say thank you?

"So...Yabuki-ssi..." Jungkook rubbed the back of his neck with his fingers and took a deep breath.

"This is all." She turned to return to her bedroom, but not before saying, "Close the door when you leave."

Jungkook left the house with more questions than answers. On the one hand she now had all the time in the world, without external pressures, without anyone telling her what to do with her life and without any worries ahead of her.

On the other, Jimin.

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