Our Father's Crusade (leverage x Psych) COMPLETED

Do You Ever Wish You Had Another Life?

I just stared at Elliot. I wanted so desperately to climb in that bed with him and forget everything but I can't. I just can't after all that's happened. Lies or not.

Shawn loved me and I loved him. Elliot has done too much damage. His eyes were looking at me like that he knew. He knew I was about to walk out that door without him.

"Please don't leave me." Elliot's words were turning into uncontrollable sobs. This was the cruelest thing I'd ever do.

"I loved you Elliot, but you've done too much damage. You cheated on me. You hurt me beyond repair. You may not remember it, but I can never forget it." I coldly stated as I kept my distance.

"Kara I will do anything just tell me what to do, I can't lose you." Elliot's desperation was clear in his voice as he unraveled.

"You already lost me. You lost me the moment I met Shawn. He loves me a way you never could, he made me want to be a mom." My words were  breaking Elliot with every breath. I still loved him. But I could never stay with him. "And my name is Carter."

"Then why didn't you let me fucking die out there?" His voice was lowering as he looked at me.

"Because if I have to live with it so do you. Whores never change Elliot, neither do killers." My voice was almost  breaking as I said it.

I couldn't of gotten out of that room fast enough. Elliot's pleas were ringing in my ears as I stepped into the hall. Nate was giving me the most gut wrenching look as Elliot screamed. I kept walking not looking back. I could hear my name being called but I didn't care. I was too angry, too hurt.

Parker was right, If Shawn hadn't of been out there, when I walked out on Elliot, I would've walked into the ocean. No man should ever have that power over me. He cheated on me, he put me and our team in danger. Amnesia doesn't give him a pass.

I felt a hand turn me around, Shawn was grabbing my wrist before I could strike. His face looked lost as he stared at me as I sobbed. I just melted into his arms crying as he held me.

"What happened in there?" He whispered as he kept a tight grip on me.

"Take me home Shawn, please take me home." I whimpered as he kissed my head over and over.

"What about Elliot?" He asked quietly as I pulled away.

"I don't care, I really don't care anymore. Take me home." I said tears still flowing as Juliet approached looking just as upset.

"Shawn, let's take her home before she gets stressed out any more than she already is. Her mom and sister will be here soon to help her dad. I'll drive you home, we'll have someone drop your car off from the station." Juliet sigh still giving me a sympathetic look.

"Come on cinnabun let's go home." Shawn kissed my head once more while wrapping his arm around me. He loved me, and that's all I needed. He loved me and he loved the twins.

The three of us made it to the parking lot, Juliet was trying to do what she could to help but there wasn't much to do to fix this. Shawn sat in the back with me not wanting to let go. He was worried, I could see it in his eyes.

"I love you Shawn, I love you so much." I sobbed as he held me. I couldn't seem to get the tears to subside no matter what I did.

"I love you and our girls so much." He reassured me as he kissed my head again. "We've got this, I promise."

"I know it's not the same, but I love you too Kara, I'm here for you no matter what." Juliet chimed in from the drivers seat. "I'll be the best aunt and best friend the world has ever seen. I'll even change poopy diapers for you."