My world is cold and bleak. I haven't heard anything from my mother other than how much of a failure I am. I've been avoiding Kally which means I haven't had normal interactions for a significant amount of time now. Because I consistently cannot prove myself, I'm a blemish on Jaden University and I can feel it. So what's the point in being here? No one needs me. No one needs me except the one group I don't want to be apart of. the ones that want to go against my mother. And the creatures. But thinking about the creatures makes me think about my friends. If I can even call them that. We want different things, we are different. We can't be on the same side. But how can I be friends with my enemies? Are they my enemies?
My head is spinning with everything I don't know. Everything I can't win. Everything I can't do that the rest of the world can. Why did I have to be born as the successor? Why did I have to be the one bearing the responsibility of this world on my shoulders? Why couldn't I just be normal. Have a normal life. Have a normal school. Have a normal family. It makes me think of my flower pot growing during the day. If I could just live during the day. If I could just live in a world filled with light instead of this ever impending darkness. Then, then I would be free, right?
if only this world could end and i could be free of these chains of my convictions. if only we could start over. maybe the world wouldn't feel so cold. wouldn't feel so hopeless. the more i learn the more darkness i see. the more darkness i see the more i wish i could escape.
but i can't escape. i'm trapped in the middle of what this world needs from me. if only there were a blueprint, something telling me where to go. someone saying what i'm made for. clarity.
that's all i desire. for a way out of my head. of this mess. away from it all until i could figure out what i want. what i've always wanted. i wish i could be a gardener, construct a world trapped inside little pots and soil. no one would need a gardener except me and my plants. no one would need me.
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Waiting for War
FantasyBOOK 3 WARNING: VIOLENCE/BULLYING/DARK THEMES/GORE/SUICIDAL IDEATION/DEATH Some of the characters have already made their fatal decisions, others are still struggling to decide what is right and wrong. Either way, war is coming and they will have t...